Wednesday, September 23, 2009
I have a question to pose
Have you ever needed to look at something without looking at it? Like, I just can't internalize what I am seeing right now.
It's 10:57pm and
I just saw the THIS IS IT commercial on TV! Screaming like a lil bitch on the inside!
Help Wanted
I sometimes think/write too much while at work. I need someone to type stuff up for me because I don't feel like it anymore.
EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
Why the news report that Killa Conrad Murray's girlfriend is being subpeoned and she is 27! 27! OMG, that is uber statutory. When there is a more than 20 year difference in age the over 21 thing doesn't apply. God, please bring this man harm.
Monday, September 21, 2009
This Is It
Yay, I just saw my first This Is It commerical on VH1! I am so excited! I didn't know it was only going to show for two weeks. I aim to go see it at least 3 times! OMG, I LOVE YOU MICHAEL!
Sunday, September 20, 2009
7:39 pm at Sonic
I'm at sonic waiting for my food and sonic radio plays Man In The Mirror. I mean and they play their music loud. I don't think I can accurately explain this. I just can't escape it...this madness, this love, this profound feeling of loss.
Today (sigh)
My head is filled with all of the things I don't have. I know I am not supposed to think that way, but I'm human and I do. I also need to eat. Haven't had anything to eat today and I am conflicted. I really want some Famous Dave's BBQ. A real Nicole Richie moment, huh.
Saturday, September 19, 2009
Janet’s article in Harper’s Bazaar
Finally got to a store to read Janet’s article in Harper’s Bazaar. It was nice and short. She avoided TV for a long whole afterwards. I’m glad we didn’t even have TV. I was depending on others to call or text and tell me what was going on. Man, this just sucks so much. I pray for them all. Reading that article made it more real. I don’t want real.
Crazy melodic/vocal duet mash up
Crazy melodic/vocal duet mash up: Amel Larrieux and Marsha from Floetry. They do crazy stuff. It would sound like a kaleidoscope.
Together Again
Damn, now I cry during Janet’s Together Again. Guess the excitement of the message and the connection didn’t last long. This grief…it’s like getting kicked in the stomach by a goat; just like on that gum commercial. But it’s not just once. I get kicked every 27 heart beats, every 8 breaths, every 54 blinks. It’s like a not frozen frost bite. Numb and disoriented, bit in no real danger of losing my limbs. My mind, now that’s a whole ‘nother story.
September 19th in the bathroom
It’s 10:52am and I feel like dancing! I went to the bathroom and had to take an extra 2 minutes to do a little jig to Bicycle by Queen.
sad, unsettling, deer ,cows, and breezes
Sometimes listening to Mike is sad, unsettling. If he were a construction worker or a lawyer it wouldn’t be as noticeable. He sings and accents his delivery with breaths and sounds and he’s no longer doing that. He’s no longer breathing, singing, making sounds. The concept of Neverland is a good one. I wish I could wish it into fruition because I really need it right now. I need that breeze blowing through those two big trees, the deer eating grass, even the pesky Neverland gnats and the squirrel. Shit, I’d take one of those Hereford cows too.
Now this is the tattoo to put over my heart
“With you I find I can close my eyes to the world surrounding me. And you create the sweetest place that I could ever be. :
~The Jackson Five “If I Don’t Love You This Way”
~The Jackson Five “If I Don’t Love You This Way”
I’ m tired
I’ m tired. Just so tired of what I have to go through every time I hear his name. See his face, his shoes, his silhouette, a pair of aviators. It just hurts and maybe this is manifesting itself in physical pain now. I just caught the end of the VMA’s and was able to was the THIS IS IT trailer. I just don’t want to do this anymore. It’s exhausting
About to learn the lyrics to If It’s Magic and Come Together. Ciao buddies!
About to learn the lyrics to If It’s Magic and Come Together. Ciao buddies!
The Assimilators
Lady Gaga’s dancers are like the people who didn’t quite make it on Janet and Madonna’s squads. It all just looks like the same thing, but Janet just hits way harder.
Oh hell Jordin Sparks has joined the group of female assimilators. She’s dyed her hair and now she blends in with Shakira, Beyonce, and Mariah.
Oh hell Jordin Sparks has joined the group of female assimilators. She’s dyed her hair and now she blends in with Shakira, Beyonce, and Mariah.
Mike's snake-like jaw line, 11:47am and ?
OOH, on ET last night the photographer that took the Mike and Lisa Marie married photos shared some from his personal collection and Mike has that snake jaw line from the BAD era I just don’t remember ever seeing that feature in light bright Mike with the perm. Maybe it was the angle that brought it forth. I could also see the melting 1985 Captain Eo Mike in there and the marriage was around 1994.
It’s 11:47am and I want to zone out, listen to some slow music and daydream on a porch swing.
What is truly the human condition?
It’s 11:47am and I want to zone out, listen to some slow music and daydream on a porch swing.
What is truly the human condition?
Lamont is on my list-Love?-Best Song Ever Written
I want to put Lamont from Sanford and Son on my trade with God list. He wasn’t all that good of an actor anyway. Slightly irritating his character.
As much as I want it, I think I’m afraid of love. It’s one of those “don’t know what to do with it when you get it” type of situations.
Best song ever wrote: Summertime
Jermaine had a weird nasal rasp as a teen. Not bad on the ears, but his own sound. If he had more range and funkiness in delivery he’d have something really special there
As much as I want it, I think I’m afraid of love. It’s one of those “don’t know what to do with it when you get it” type of situations.
Best song ever wrote: Summertime
Jermaine had a weird nasal rasp as a teen. Not bad on the ears, but his own sound. If he had more range and funkiness in delivery he’d have something really special there
September 18 2009
Forgot to report my pity party yesterday on the bus. We’ve Had Enough came on and I just felt so touched, so sad, like he laid a hand on my shoulder, looked me in the eyes and told me the stories of the little girl whose father was shot dead by police and a man who lost his wife to war; to become a single father of a small boy. The song put me in mind of Earth Song, but it’s sadder. More drenched in sorrow. It’s all in the vocal delivery.
Running on like 2 ½ hours of sleep. I don’t know how I am going to make it through this day.
Running on like 2 ½ hours of sleep. I don’t know how I am going to make it through this day.
Waiting for an Angel has expanded my vocabulary
September 18 2009
It’s taking forever to read Waiting for an Angel, but it’s a very educational book. I’ve expanded my vocabulary in just the first 60 pages.
Taciturnity-not talkative
Incipient- in the beginning stages of
Vacuity-absence of intelligence; blank
Incendiary-an agitator; a person who stirs up strife. Used or adapted for setting property on fire.
It’s taking forever to read Waiting for an Angel, but it’s a very educational book. I’ve expanded my vocabulary in just the first 60 pages.
Taciturnity-not talkative
Incipient- in the beginning stages of
Vacuity-absence of intelligence; blank
Incendiary-an agitator; a person who stirs up strife. Used or adapted for setting property on fire.
Project Runway Models- Ebony Why?
Why was Ebony crying like she was Ceelie and Emarie was Nettie on Project Runway? Mister ain’t gonna keep ya’ll apart. She can call you from the airport. Ya’ll can fly out to visit each other. It ain’t the end. It’s gonna be ok.
I saw those eyes again
I saw those eyes again. The same eyes that wet my heart and set my spine ablaze in 2006. The ones that trifled with my psyche and made me hide my face in a bashful fit. Those are my favorite. Because they are there for the world to see. You don’t have to look deeply or at a certain angle to see them. They are there for you. So sweet, so open, so beautiful. Damn you ET, now I have to hustle on the footage so when I want to have my “1981 and for some reason Mike looked good to me” moments I’ll have something else to look at other than the Suzuki commercial. He couldn’t wink. He’d bwink (blink+wink).
Simmering nervousness, happy dancing, major things/wrong reasons
I have some kind of simmering nervousness just under my skin. I have been going to town on the side of my nails this week. I bite the skin off the sides of my nail bed instead of biting my nails.
Michael makes me happy dance. See, I’m serious. I used his full first name.
I want major things for all of the wrong reasons. I want kids to name them my kewl baby names. I want to get married to have the bomb reception/after party and dress up.
Seriously, who is that singing backup on Centipede? Sounding like Martha wash Jr.!?
I can’t listen to hype Mike at work. Because I lose my focus. Ain’t doing nary a bit of work for at least 2 minutes afterwards.
Whatever happened to the group Jade? I loved the Josie looking one or maybe her name was Josie? I don’t know.
Why do gay men flock to certain female entertainers? Tina Turner, Cher, Patti LaBelle, Janet…they gonna be on Beyonce in the next generation.
Michael makes me happy dance. See, I’m serious. I used his full first name.
I want major things for all of the wrong reasons. I want kids to name them my kewl baby names. I want to get married to have the bomb reception/after party and dress up.
Seriously, who is that singing backup on Centipede? Sounding like Martha wash Jr.!?
I can’t listen to hype Mike at work. Because I lose my focus. Ain’t doing nary a bit of work for at least 2 minutes afterwards.
Whatever happened to the group Jade? I loved the Josie looking one or maybe her name was Josie? I don’t know.
Why do gay men flock to certain female entertainers? Tina Turner, Cher, Patti LaBelle, Janet…they gonna be on Beyonce in the next generation.
Babyface and his swole head
Gosh, Kevon Edmond has such a beautiful voice. Melvin is the grit. Kevon is the finesse. Babyface…he just a babyface with adult teeth. Why is he so swole about the head these days? He ( I sure hate to say it, RIP Girl), but he looks like Flower from Meerkat Manor when she got bit in the head by that snake and her head swelled up like 2 ½ times its normal size. I have such an affinity for animals. I damn near boo hooed when she passed. DAMN SNAKE! Don’t let me catch yo ass in the Sahara!
Idirs and I Want Muscles
I only like Idris Elba with facial hair. I’m not sure I can get with that accent.
I need some penmanship lessons. I have to really focus to write nicely.
Why is Muscles by Diana Ross making me uncomfortable today? Damn this sensitive issue grieving process. Good song though. Shit I want muscles too, but not a bodybuilder, they look gross. You should strip or provocatively dance to this song. OOH MIKE! :O
I need some penmanship lessons. I have to really focus to write nicely.
Why is Muscles by Diana Ross making me uncomfortable today? Damn this sensitive issue grieving process. Good song though. Shit I want muscles too, but not a bodybuilder, they look gross. You should strip or provocatively dance to this song. OOH MIKE! :O
I forgot to report:
I forgot to report:
The US Marshals were having a recruitment event and they had some vertical banners up. Fredrick Douglas was a marshal from 1871-?
They pretty much escort/protect people involved in high profile federal cases.
Some little black girl integrating a school. The dude who integrated Ole Miss, Timothy McVeigh and the other dude, Al Capone and Wyatt Earp was a marshal during the OK Corral.
The US Marshals were having a recruitment event and they had some vertical banners up. Fredrick Douglas was a marshal from 1871-?
They pretty much escort/protect people involved in high profile federal cases.
Some little black girl integrating a school. The dude who integrated Ole Miss, Timothy McVeigh and the other dude, Al Capone and Wyatt Earp was a marshal during the OK Corral.
light, pity and being naked or clothed, and sweet tea
What is the difference between a flashing, pulsating, and blinking light?
There’s no pity in the clothed city either.
McDonald’s sweet tea is pretty good. I need a new purse. I wish I could add 3 more hours to each day.
There’s no pity in the clothed city either.
McDonald’s sweet tea is pretty good. I need a new purse. I wish I could add 3 more hours to each day.
Did Obama really call Kanye a jackass?
September 16 2009
I don’t do the football, but had to watch this Cowherd show because my sister’s husband had it on while I was eating. He, the Cowherd dude, said something profound. He was something like—You don’t see successful people calling other successful people average because they know how hard you have to work to be a success—
This was in regard to someone emailing him that Tom Brady was hyped athlete with average talent.
I don’t like that little black boy actor who is really adult and abrasive and a total ass in all of his roles. He played on Role Models. I am afraid he doesn’t realize that he is a child and won’t stay in a child’s place.
Did Obama really call Kanye a jackass?
I don’t do the football, but had to watch this Cowherd show because my sister’s husband had it on while I was eating. He, the Cowherd dude, said something profound. He was something like—You don’t see successful people calling other successful people average because they know how hard you have to work to be a success—
This was in regard to someone emailing him that Tom Brady was hyped athlete with average talent.
I don’t like that little black boy actor who is really adult and abrasive and a total ass in all of his roles. He played on Role Models. I am afraid he doesn’t realize that he is a child and won’t stay in a child’s place.
Did Obama really call Kanye a jackass?
Eddie Griffin and Harvey Dent's face
Why does Eddie Griffin have a reality show? And I’m about to watch it. I don’t like the face of the dude who played Harvey on The Dark Knight. There are too many dimples and lines. He looks animated, like a moon man. How in the hell is a laser ink pen supposed to cure nicotine addiction? Is Eddie Acting?
My dirty dancing fantasy
TV Guide Channel has finally put Mike down. Patrick Swayze has taken his place on the Hollywood 411 show. Sucks he passed. He fought hard. Damn that cancer. Hey, that resort from Dirty dancing really exists. I’d like to go there someday. What little girl/teen didn’t dream of working at the resort or staying there and having a summer tryst with the hot staff dancer of your dreams.
I was about to scalp a bitch on the bus
My 2nd worst experience on the commuter bus. A lady asked to sit with me and I was like fine. I’ll be damned! She was bigger than I thought. Her ass just came down on me and we are sitting hip to hip. I don’t know her! I don’t want to touch her! Then she gets a blue smurf blanket out. Getting chiggers all over the place off that thing. THEN the bitch goes to sleep and starts leaning in my direction. Leaning so tough I could smell her hair. Smelling like air dried wet dog. Oh Lord! I want to scalp her! The she sat up and disturbed the atmosphere with the blue blanket and now I’m getting funky pissy whiffs of the pestilence breeding in the fibers. Palmdale can’t get here fast enough.
And then there were more random thoughts
It’s really interesting. Being in a relationship and existing comfortably together.
Jody Watley can sing way better than Janet. Still Pop music, but more vocal presence.
The Beastie Boys never changed their flow.
Jody Watley can sing way better than Janet. Still Pop music, but more vocal presence.
The Beastie Boys never changed their flow.
Prince and the Woodland Critter Christmas Orgy
God, Prince has the ability to bring angst, lust, and passion out of you. Little Red Corvette just conjures up the need in me to dance all voluptuous like and scantily clad around a New York loft apartment. I have a silk piece of cloth about 4 feet in length as a prop. It’s like the Woodland Critter Christmas orgy on South Park.
More Random Thoughts
Taylor Swift’s eyes are too long. They are like 3 inches in width! Maybe it was her makeup.
Solange looks like a preying mantis.
I like words. They are pretty awesome
Solange looks like a preying mantis.
I like words. They are pretty awesome
They way Mike makes me feel
OMG, he just makes me beam. To hear his voice. I just close my eyes and smile. You seriously have to listen to Mike with your eyes closed and ears and heart open. You can see all of the colors that way. If you allow yourself to hold out your arms you can feel the textures. It’s like being bathed in warm sunshine.
As I said before, I have an issue with emotional extremes. Either I love too deeply or hate too hard. Would you call that passion?
I can only recall 2 people who have made me smile uncontrollably. Bobby from Alabama and Mike. Two different reasons, but still a skyrockets in flight kind of feeling
As I said before, I have an issue with emotional extremes. Either I love too deeply or hate too hard. Would you call that passion?
I can only recall 2 people who have made me smile uncontrollably. Bobby from Alabama and Mike. Two different reasons, but still a skyrockets in flight kind of feeling
Broke Ass LA and blah ass music of today
DANG! The City of LA will probably be bankrupt in 8 months. That would be a really big case here.
All music is becoming the same…in a bad way. Everything is Pop. Is there really a difference in the stuff Jordin Sparks, Taylor Swift, Avril Lavigne, and Beyonce sing? NO. I just feel like everything sounds so generically the same. No one is introducing new sounds. Las new sound or at least individualized interpretation of an already existing sound was NERD. Maybe people are running out of ideas or are not accurately inspired by the pas. Don’t sample the Heatwave sound. Re-create is and find a way to add your something special.
All music is becoming the same…in a bad way. Everything is Pop. Is there really a difference in the stuff Jordin Sparks, Taylor Swift, Avril Lavigne, and Beyonce sing? NO. I just feel like everything sounds so generically the same. No one is introducing new sounds. Las new sound or at least individualized interpretation of an already existing sound was NERD. Maybe people are running out of ideas or are not accurately inspired by the pas. Don’t sample the Heatwave sound. Re-create is and find a way to add your something special.
It's the end of days...maybe the Aztecs are right
I don’t remember there ever being a time in my life where so many people have passed. This can’t be good. It depresses me. It scares me. This just sucks all around.
Dead Kitten/Ducks, Bad Weather, and my delicately sensitive issue
September 15 2009
I had a dream that out cat was having kittens. There was like 7-8 of them and one came out as a beige wax/soap shaped kitty; two dimensional. Most didn’t make it. Then all of a sudden the kittens were ducklings. The black duckling’s right wing was broken off at the nub/where an elbow would be. Only 3 survived. I think it was raining and they had been moved to a little duck/dog house out in the yard.
California people…why this lady just say that it was bad weather yesterday because of dark clouds and wind. Lady, there was no precipitation. Clouds and wind…I don’t deem them weather. You need some liquid going on.
I’m so tired of hearing Mike on the radio. It hurts too bad. I don’t want him forced on me or I just might lose my mind. Never has there been a more sensitive, unbelievably delicate issue with me.
Ha, there’s a Latino Heritage Month. This is Latino Central…that’s everyday.
I had a dream that out cat was having kittens. There was like 7-8 of them and one came out as a beige wax/soap shaped kitty; two dimensional. Most didn’t make it. Then all of a sudden the kittens were ducklings. The black duckling’s right wing was broken off at the nub/where an elbow would be. Only 3 survived. I think it was raining and they had been moved to a little duck/dog house out in the yard.
California people…why this lady just say that it was bad weather yesterday because of dark clouds and wind. Lady, there was no precipitation. Clouds and wind…I don’t deem them weather. You need some liquid going on.
I’m so tired of hearing Mike on the radio. It hurts too bad. I don’t want him forced on me or I just might lose my mind. Never has there been a more sensitive, unbelievably delicate issue with me.
Ha, there’s a Latino Heritage Month. This is Latino Central…that’s everyday.
47 yr old Carl Thomas looking dude crossing the street
Does this man not have on drawers? He looks like a 47 yr old Carl Thomas w/ a cool Cali ensemble on. BUT his shirt isn’t buttoned up all of the way. Looks like he missed a button or two at the bottom. The wind blows the shirt open and all I see is (not as dark as the rest of him) pelvic area. I mean D’Angelo, Ken Doll Pelvic area. Drawers usually cover that area.
No Skateboarding over 35
There should be an age limit on skateboarding. No one over 35 and over 35 only if you look young for your age, but no more than 40yrs old should use a skateboard are their mode of transportation or leisure.
Random thoughts
I think Tamia should try Broadway. She has such a beautiful, classic voice.
Why do humans feel the need to stretch? It’s such a wonderful feeling. Does it stretch the muscles, letting more oxygen in?
It’s official. I’m stuck in QC Jail. This is sexist. I know if I were a dude I’d still be down there.
Why do humans feel the need to stretch? It’s such a wonderful feeling. Does it stretch the muscles, letting more oxygen in?
It’s official. I’m stuck in QC Jail. This is sexist. I know if I were a dude I’d still be down there.
Justin Timberlake
Tiff D, I’m just getting around to seeing what you saw 10 years ago. Just Timberlake is a pretty good performer. I don’t think he’s cute, but he does well for himself musically. Sorry for making fun of you like 6-7 years ago. Timberlakians Unite!
Music Takin' Over
Gosh, I have got to take the time to listen to Music Takin’ Over with my eyes closed. I think I heard somet…YAY! I heard it! He says… “makes you makes you wanna dance yea” and then he makes a yea sounding sound before he takes his next breath. It’s …a sound.
Where in the hell is Floetry?
World, have you ever seen such a sorry and forlorn young woman?
Where in the hell is Floetry?
World, have you ever seen such a sorry and forlorn young woman?
BSS, appropriately light "skinneded" and Antonio Banderas
I am a Bold Souls Sister: BSS
It’s amazing how natural the lighting made Mike’s make up look in music videos. It was its most amazing in the BAD video. He really looked light skinned!
Is Antonio Banderas and Melanie Griffin divorced yet? Pickings are slim in Cali and I might just have to actively pursue my Spanish baby daddy.
It’s amazing how natural the lighting made Mike’s make up look in music videos. It was its most amazing in the BAD video. He really looked light skinned!
Is Antonio Banderas and Melanie Griffin divorced yet? Pickings are slim in Cali and I might just have to actively pursue my Spanish baby daddy.
Revamped list of things I am looking for in a man: (in nor particular order)
Revamped list of things I am looking for in a man: (in nor particular order)
Independent
Ambitious
Has Individuality
Attentive
Kind
Musically inclined
Risk taker (to compensate for my lack there of)
Intelligent
Sense of self
Has style
Out-of-the-box thinker
Sensitive (to my needs)
Attractive
Tall
Dark skinned
Beautiful smile
Full lips
Beautiful, open, deep, meaningful eyes
Not fat and/or sloppy
Not crack head skinny either
No speech impediments
Facial hair (goatee, mustache, especially a beard that is well kept)
Independent
Ambitious
Has Individuality
Attentive
Kind
Musically inclined
Risk taker (to compensate for my lack there of)
Intelligent
Sense of self
Has style
Out-of-the-box thinker
Sensitive (to my needs)
Attractive
Tall
Dark skinned
Beautiful smile
Full lips
Beautiful, open, deep, meaningful eyes
Not fat and/or sloppy
Not crack head skinny either
No speech impediments
Facial hair (goatee, mustache, especially a beard that is well kept)
my life feels like ...(insert stuff here)
The world has changed. Like, it’s different in a bad way now. The feeling to everyday has changed. Almost a feeling of dread. A perpetual cloudy day. Yes, my life feels like a rainy overcast day in London with a high of 52 degrees and a slight drizzle.
I need the freedom to think deeply. Think softly. Get out my joys and indiscretions. Write, sing, dance, turn my face up to the sun and let the warm rays permeate my soul.
Why is Touch by Omarion such a wonderful song? It’s just instant energy.
I need the freedom to think deeply. Think softly. Get out my joys and indiscretions. Write, sing, dance, turn my face up to the sun and let the warm rays permeate my soul.
Why is Touch by Omarion such a wonderful song? It’s just instant energy.
September 14 2009
September 14 2009
Gosh, the weather is changing. I am not ready for the chill I will get when I go to Springfield next month.
Can you have fever in your fingertips?
I don’t think it’s meant for me to have roots. Maybe I’m meant to roam the world. Maybe that is how I am supposed to do whatever it is that I am meant to do here.
See, Mike loves me. I am stuck in QC Jail today and when I came back from putting my lunch in the refrigerator Beat It was playing. God send you what you need when you need it I guess. This place “just sucks your life out leaving you comatose.”
Is it me or does Kandi from Xscape make a whole bunch of bullshit music on The Real Housewives show? It is just lacking any real soul or grit or true spirit. She has a way better voice than the stuff she is putting out. I wish songwriting and melody making came naturally to me.
Why do I like Three-Six Mafia so much? It is rather vile, but the beat just rides so damn hard. Dis Bitch Dat Ho, Sippin on some Sizzurp, Stay High, Tear Da Club Up, etc. It’s just infectious in a niggerish way. “All in circles like duck duck goose.” That’s funny!
Gosh, the weather is changing. I am not ready for the chill I will get when I go to Springfield next month.
Can you have fever in your fingertips?
I don’t think it’s meant for me to have roots. Maybe I’m meant to roam the world. Maybe that is how I am supposed to do whatever it is that I am meant to do here.
See, Mike loves me. I am stuck in QC Jail today and when I came back from putting my lunch in the refrigerator Beat It was playing. God send you what you need when you need it I guess. This place “just sucks your life out leaving you comatose.”
Is it me or does Kandi from Xscape make a whole bunch of bullshit music on The Real Housewives show? It is just lacking any real soul or grit or true spirit. She has a way better voice than the stuff she is putting out. I wish songwriting and melody making came naturally to me.
Why do I like Three-Six Mafia so much? It is rather vile, but the beat just rides so damn hard. Dis Bitch Dat Ho, Sippin on some Sizzurp, Stay High, Tear Da Club Up, etc. It’s just infectious in a niggerish way. “All in circles like duck duck goose.” That’s funny!
Monday, September 14, 2009
THE VMA's
THE VMA’s
Not bad. I liked the juxtaposition of all of the Mike costumes. I was happy to see girls up there dancing. Mike never used girls. We can do his moves just as well as guys. Interesting technology, Janet being able to sing Scream live. It was recorded with that super reverb so I figured hey, cool ass microphone. It was tastefully done. No qualms here. I need to up my A game. She 40 something and did that jump off your knees thing. I did it once when I was 13 and ain’t been able to do it since. I like the lighting. I saw one dude’s lean mechanism didn’t quite work on Smooth Criminal. Madonna’s speech was nice. Glad I ain’t one of the millions who had forsaken him. I laugh in the faces of those who feel guilty because I was devoted until the end and will always spread his message.
I was nervous to watch this. It was short and classy.
Russell Brand…I don’t know about him. I want to play in his hair though.
What happened? Why are people booing that little white chick and the technical difficulties with the Tracy Morgan thing was weird.
I really didn’t plan on watching this whole thing since I am outside of its demographic, but I gotta stay tuned to catch Mike’s trailer for This Is It. Kinda sucks that this actually happened 3 hours ago so they are censoring stuff. That white chick singing on the subway is hokey as hell.
I think Tupac died on this date back in 1996.
Damn, Lady Gaga may be ugly, but she sounds great. I wonder if Madonna ever gets miffed at people biting her. She plays the piano too! Now this feel like a Prince concert with all of this lace. Damn! That performance had a message. Wonder if she ever did musical theater? Very dramatic.
What’s up with this house band playing out and into the show?
I am officially tired of the Ring On It song.
Why are these performances to gimmicky? Pink doing a high wire act?
Ooh, why does TMZ now have footage of Mike in its quick montage tease commercials? They never had him in there before. Russell Brand don’t believe that stuff he is spouting about loving everybody as a way of remembering Mike. MTV making him say it. I loved that Sandberg/Fallon break out into Motown Philly. OOH, why were the people being mean to Taylor Swift? That is the white chick they were booing. That was nice of Beyonce.
This whole anticipation of Jay-Z arriving is stupid. He’s already there. Those are just people driving the streets of New York for effect until he jumps in a black vehicle and joins them right before they get to his performance so it will look like he has been riding around all of this time. Plus, he has been on his way there the whole show and when they show the vehicles there isn’t any heavy traffic. MTV do you think we’re that stupid?
Hey that Rhapsody commercial of Jay-Z redoing all of his album covers in that photo shoot was tight!
Watched pretty much the whole VMA’s to see the This Is It trailer. He is just so beautiful. I got slightly nervous just watching him do his thing. I can’t wait until October 28th, but I’m scared. Sucks he and Janet didn’t get the chance to perform Scream together.
Ah Ha! So it WAS Kanye West who did whatever to have the booing during Taylor Swift’s thingy. I am now convinced that he is doing all of this shit on purpose. He is not crazy. He can’t possibly be that ignorant.
I liked Shakira’s dress. Jermaine looks like HIM off The Power Puff Girls. His skin is just so scary looking; leathery. Had it always been that way? I don’t think so. I actually would have holla’d between 1975-1985. He is 2nd fiddle to Jackie who still caught my eye at the memorial. Lil Sigmund III! Beyonce does a good job looking naturally refreshed. Her weave is growing on me
To top off the night…I blew a fuse in my room when I tried to plug the DVD player into the same power strip as the computer. New house. I don’t know where the fusebox is and everybody is asleep.
How is he not here?
Wait, Wait! Stop the presses! Was SWAY high or drunk in that spot right after the show ended? Them eyes were looking red and tight.
Not bad. I liked the juxtaposition of all of the Mike costumes. I was happy to see girls up there dancing. Mike never used girls. We can do his moves just as well as guys. Interesting technology, Janet being able to sing Scream live. It was recorded with that super reverb so I figured hey, cool ass microphone. It was tastefully done. No qualms here. I need to up my A game. She 40 something and did that jump off your knees thing. I did it once when I was 13 and ain’t been able to do it since. I like the lighting. I saw one dude’s lean mechanism didn’t quite work on Smooth Criminal. Madonna’s speech was nice. Glad I ain’t one of the millions who had forsaken him. I laugh in the faces of those who feel guilty because I was devoted until the end and will always spread his message.
I was nervous to watch this. It was short and classy.
Russell Brand…I don’t know about him. I want to play in his hair though.
What happened? Why are people booing that little white chick and the technical difficulties with the Tracy Morgan thing was weird.
I really didn’t plan on watching this whole thing since I am outside of its demographic, but I gotta stay tuned to catch Mike’s trailer for This Is It. Kinda sucks that this actually happened 3 hours ago so they are censoring stuff. That white chick singing on the subway is hokey as hell.
I think Tupac died on this date back in 1996.
Damn, Lady Gaga may be ugly, but she sounds great. I wonder if Madonna ever gets miffed at people biting her. She plays the piano too! Now this feel like a Prince concert with all of this lace. Damn! That performance had a message. Wonder if she ever did musical theater? Very dramatic.
What’s up with this house band playing out and into the show?
I am officially tired of the Ring On It song.
Why are these performances to gimmicky? Pink doing a high wire act?
Ooh, why does TMZ now have footage of Mike in its quick montage tease commercials? They never had him in there before. Russell Brand don’t believe that stuff he is spouting about loving everybody as a way of remembering Mike. MTV making him say it. I loved that Sandberg/Fallon break out into Motown Philly. OOH, why were the people being mean to Taylor Swift? That is the white chick they were booing. That was nice of Beyonce.
This whole anticipation of Jay-Z arriving is stupid. He’s already there. Those are just people driving the streets of New York for effect until he jumps in a black vehicle and joins them right before they get to his performance so it will look like he has been riding around all of this time. Plus, he has been on his way there the whole show and when they show the vehicles there isn’t any heavy traffic. MTV do you think we’re that stupid?
Hey that Rhapsody commercial of Jay-Z redoing all of his album covers in that photo shoot was tight!
Watched pretty much the whole VMA’s to see the This Is It trailer. He is just so beautiful. I got slightly nervous just watching him do his thing. I can’t wait until October 28th, but I’m scared. Sucks he and Janet didn’t get the chance to perform Scream together.
Ah Ha! So it WAS Kanye West who did whatever to have the booing during Taylor Swift’s thingy. I am now convinced that he is doing all of this shit on purpose. He is not crazy. He can’t possibly be that ignorant.
I liked Shakira’s dress. Jermaine looks like HIM off The Power Puff Girls. His skin is just so scary looking; leathery. Had it always been that way? I don’t think so. I actually would have holla’d between 1975-1985. He is 2nd fiddle to Jackie who still caught my eye at the memorial. Lil Sigmund III! Beyonce does a good job looking naturally refreshed. Her weave is growing on me
To top off the night…I blew a fuse in my room when I tried to plug the DVD player into the same power strip as the computer. New house. I don’t know where the fusebox is and everybody is asleep.
How is he not here?
Wait, Wait! Stop the presses! Was SWAY high or drunk in that spot right after the show ended? Them eyes were looking red and tight.
My two favoritest people ever, Serena and the tribute concert that could
September 13 2009
I hate the way the media are really bearing down on Serena. I mean, yea she was wrong to threaten the lady, but they are just dragging this out and it’s unfair, IMO. It’s over with and done. Let’s focus on the damn sport and not the ONE TIME she lost her cool.
I want to be a dance instructor for Thrill The World LA. We’ll see how this goes. I am excited to help out. My birthday will be a busy one. I have the Health Fair, Thrill The World and then partaying. I think I want to do something Friday night as well. Maybe we’ll hit up Plei.
My two favoritest people ever: Mike and Scooby
I guess the talk about the Tribute Concert was somewhat rooted in truth. The thing done got postponed until next year. What are they going to do about those who had already booked their flights? It’s in London, which is a better location. Gosh, I have got to leave this country one day. It sucks to have my passport, but be too poor to actually go anywhere. I am also not motivated to go abroad right now.
I hate the way the media are really bearing down on Serena. I mean, yea she was wrong to threaten the lady, but they are just dragging this out and it’s unfair, IMO. It’s over with and done. Let’s focus on the damn sport and not the ONE TIME she lost her cool.
I want to be a dance instructor for Thrill The World LA. We’ll see how this goes. I am excited to help out. My birthday will be a busy one. I have the Health Fair, Thrill The World and then partaying. I think I want to do something Friday night as well. Maybe we’ll hit up Plei.
My two favoritest people ever: Mike and Scooby
I guess the talk about the Tribute Concert was somewhat rooted in truth. The thing done got postponed until next year. What are they going to do about those who had already booked their flights? It’s in London, which is a better location. Gosh, I have got to leave this country one day. It sucks to have my passport, but be too poor to actually go anywhere. I am also not motivated to go abroad right now.
Saturday, September 12, 2009
Sananda Maitreya...
I beg of you. Please do a show in the US again! I need your spirit here. It's cool yet refreshingly distrubing all at the same time. You're a thought provoking soul.
God Bless...and how did you come up with Super Model Sandwich w/ Cheese?
God Bless...and how did you come up with Super Model Sandwich w/ Cheese?
Emote and If It's Magic
I can be dramatic, or at least a sad emoting singer now. My loss will ensure tears. I should learn Stevie’s If It’s Magic.
Village Ghetto Land, I know that place.
Village Ghetto Land, I know that place.
Through The Wire
It just dawned on me that at the end of that Through The Wire Kanye video he is kind of hugged up with Chaka in appreciation. Bu why would you want to hug Kanye? That had to have been some putting on for the camera. Yucky person at the bottom of my barrel of lost hope.
DJ Quik and Nirvana????
OMG! DJ Quik and Raphael Saadiq sampled Smells Like Teen Spirit by Nirvana on that Come On Let’s Get Down song! The melody, hook, and little guitar riff. Now that’s tight!
This lyric should be tattooed around my right wrist
“Loving you until we dream of life and life becomes a dream.”
~Stevie Wonder’s I’ll Be Loving You Always
~Stevie Wonder’s I’ll Be Loving You Always
There are too many grown black man singing groups of the 70’s
There are too many grown black man singing groups of the 70’s and most had 5 members. Guess that’s The Temptations thing. I don’t know. Who said backing 1953 that 5 dudes was the way to go? I was wathcing a TimeLife music compliation infomercial last night hosted by Cuba Gooding, Sr. His dentures bother me. They are too chompy and artificially straight.
Top Dude Singing Groups of the 70’s:
The Jackson 5/Jacksons (Ya’ll know what this is!)
The O’Jays
Enchantment
Earth, Wind, and Fire
L.T.D. (pretty much Jeffrey)
Top Dude Singing Groups of the 70’s:
The Jackson 5/Jacksons (Ya’ll know what this is!)
The O’Jays
Enchantment
Earth, Wind, and Fire
L.T.D. (pretty much Jeffrey)
Needing a Man, VH1???, and NY&CO
I don’t think I’m that hard up for a man yet. I’m not frequenting places they are just to catch something. I think I’m a special case. Normal methods may not work for I am not your typical chick.
I am a very special person. I wrote down instructions on how to do something and couldn’t understand the first line of my notes. I had to have someone else decipher what looked like VH1 to the first four letters of the word Utilities (Util).
This damn radio station plays all of the music they used to play at New York & Co 4 years ago. I totally forgot about my gold NY&CO credit card. I called the numbers and they have increased my limit. Maybe I’ll buy something for my birthday from there. I haven’t used that card in over 3 years.
I am a very special person. I wrote down instructions on how to do something and couldn’t understand the first line of my notes. I had to have someone else decipher what looked like VH1 to the first four letters of the word Utilities (Util).
This damn radio station plays all of the music they used to play at New York & Co 4 years ago. I totally forgot about my gold NY&CO credit card. I called the numbers and they have increased my limit. Maybe I’ll buy something for my birthday from there. I haven’t used that card in over 3 years.
Jamie Foxx, Hard Soft Candy, and En Vogue
Jamie Foxx is coming. I’m curious about his show. At least he will definitely sing and telling jokes on top of that. I think it will be a good time.
Can you get gas from a sugar cookie? Nah, I bet it was that banana earlier.
Ooh, if this job gets extended I’ll still be here to see En Vogue in November. Humh! Humh? Humh.
Those soft peppermints are getting smaller and harder.
Can you get gas from a sugar cookie? Nah, I bet it was that banana earlier.
Ooh, if this job gets extended I’ll still be here to see En Vogue in November. Humh! Humh? Humh.
Those soft peppermints are getting smaller and harder.
Grief and Thoughts by Association
I hate thoughts by association. I couldn’t listen to Got To Give It Up by Marvin Gave…Smokey on Tavis Smiley-Motown-Mike-Sad. Plus It’s mislabeled on my MP3 player as a Jackson 5 song and I don’t know why. I’d really like to shut my brain down. Damn You Human Intelligence!
This lyric should be tattooed on my neck
“Oh, I’m just a girl…
Oh, am I making myself clear…
That’s all that you’ll ever let me be…”
~No Doubt’s I’m Just A Girl
Oh, am I making myself clear…
That’s all that you’ll ever let me be…”
~No Doubt’s I’m Just A Girl
This lyric should be tattooed on my back
I’m hitting switches on bitches like I’ve been fixed with hydraulics.”
~Tupac’s How Do You Want It
~Tupac’s How Do You Want It
This lyric should be tattooed across my heart
“Wherever you may be I’ll look up and see someone in the dark for me.”
~Michael Jackson’s Someone In The Dark
~Michael Jackson’s Someone In The Dark
I’m so sleepy I’m cock eyed
September 12 2009
I now fully comprehend the saying “I’m so sleepy I’m cock eyed.” Running on less than 4 hours of sleep is hard…especially when you have to go to QC Jail bright and early, I mean dark and early. I was on the highway before the sun came up.
I now fully comprehend the saying “I’m so sleepy I’m cock eyed.” Running on less than 4 hours of sleep is hard…especially when you have to go to QC Jail bright and early, I mean dark and early. I was on the highway before the sun came up.
On this episode of as the jacksons mutate...
I’m super late, but I just realized that I saw Majestic in the looped feed footage from the 3rd funeral.
It has to be hard having everybody wanting a piece of you. Scary.
OOOH, word on the streets of the valley is that all of 3T got in on that family surgery and look ghastly. Taj, the oldest is apparently 35-36 and the little current porker I talked about a couple of days isn’t Taj it’s one of the others. Tarryl, Terry, Titus…something that begins with a T. Hey what happened to Christopher Titus…he is funny. I still think the oldest of the T’s was looking down right smashing at the memorial. He had on the customary shades so I can’t tell you what he really looked like, but from 1,000 yards back and 35 rows up via the jumbotron…he was spiffy.
It has to be hard having everybody wanting a piece of you. Scary.
OOOH, word on the streets of the valley is that all of 3T got in on that family surgery and look ghastly. Taj, the oldest is apparently 35-36 and the little current porker I talked about a couple of days isn’t Taj it’s one of the others. Tarryl, Terry, Titus…something that begins with a T. Hey what happened to Christopher Titus…he is funny. I still think the oldest of the T’s was looking down right smashing at the memorial. He had on the customary shades so I can’t tell you what he really looked like, but from 1,000 yards back and 35 rows up via the jumbotron…he was spiffy.
Lonette McKee, Cool and the Gang and sour souless music
Man, this lady just got on the bus who puts me in mind of Lonette McKee and a girl I used to know named Mimi.
Damn, I didn’t know Cool and the Gang sang Hollywood Swinging! Well shoot, they actually sat the band’s name in the lyrics.
Current music doesn’t feel good. There is no spring or uplift to it. It’s so heavy and serious.
Damn, I didn’t know Cool and the Gang sang Hollywood Swinging! Well shoot, they actually sat the band’s name in the lyrics.
Current music doesn’t feel good. There is no spring or uplift to it. It’s so heavy and serious.
Imagined violence on the commuter bus
OMG, I want to ring this lady’s neck! She sits behind me on the bus and commits to making every bodily noise possible. I’ve never seen her on the bus before. Ooh, I Hate Her! (with tight lipped, squinted eye scowl)
September 11 2009-best comedic actresses our time
September 11 2009
Some of the best comedic actresses of our time: Laurie Metcalf and Tisha Campbell. Maybe Tichina Arnold can get honorable mention. They can just make absolute asses of themselves. They commit to the quirkiness. They are some of the very few actresses of today who can do damn near slapstick. I mean…Aunt Jackie, she’s a classic.
Some of the best comedic actresses of our time: Laurie Metcalf and Tisha Campbell. Maybe Tichina Arnold can get honorable mention. They can just make absolute asses of themselves. They commit to the quirkiness. They are some of the very few actresses of today who can do damn near slapstick. I mean…Aunt Jackie, she’s a classic.
September 10 2009- "The More I Sparkle The Less I Burn.”
September 10 2009
I ordain today “Book writing day.” I really didn’t take advantage of the three day weekend. It seems like I never have enough time to do what I want/need to do.
(sigh) The horrible fever of loss I feel everyday is not subsiding. I don’t know why it has gotten so heavy all of a sudden. Delirious with heartache. This may be a fight back the tears day.
Never divulge too much information. Although the atmosphere seems easy it could be used against you. Remember Allison from College Hill.
“The More I Sparkle The Less I Burn.”
~TTD
OMG people are so mean! Why did TV Guide just tease a story about that Vienna Tribute like…”what if you held a tribute and no one showed up? Jermaine may soon find out.” That is so mean. I mean like, I readily admit that I am not too into the line up, but I’m grieving here so I am biased.
I ordain today “Book writing day.” I really didn’t take advantage of the three day weekend. It seems like I never have enough time to do what I want/need to do.
(sigh) The horrible fever of loss I feel everyday is not subsiding. I don’t know why it has gotten so heavy all of a sudden. Delirious with heartache. This may be a fight back the tears day.
Never divulge too much information. Although the atmosphere seems easy it could be used against you. Remember Allison from College Hill.
“The More I Sparkle The Less I Burn.”
~TTD
OMG people are so mean! Why did TV Guide just tease a story about that Vienna Tribute like…”what if you held a tribute and no one showed up? Jermaine may soon find out.” That is so mean. I mean like, I readily admit that I am not too into the line up, but I’m grieving here so I am biased.
Mike I just want to know because I worry about you...and myself
Did it hurt that bad? Where did it hurt? Can I kiss it and make it feel better; bring you back. How selfish of me to want to bring you back from your peace, but I am in an inner chaotic hell. Did it hurt? Did you realize it was coming? I worry because I don’t want you to suffer. Did you think you were falling asleep? I worry for myself sometimes. Is there anyone out there feeling the way that I am feeling. Maybe some 35 year old chick in Romania and an 18 year old boy in Tokyo. I feel all alone. I feel so strongly, it’s so all encompassing at times that I worry about myself because I have no one who understands me, understands how I feel. You can imagine, empathize…but you really don’t feel me and my pain. They don’t understand the connection. How I can be absolutely floored and rendered useless by it. I don’t know. It’s this something special. This something that is hard to describe without feeling not quite right. Not quite right because in the eyes of society it is weird. It’s stupid. They say, “You didn’t even know him.” But somehow I feel I did. Somehow I know I did. I can feel it. It’s in my heart. It has shaped my being. LIML- My Heart Shakeabadadown-My Soul
I can feel the sorrow welling up inside me again. I’ve done pretty well for the past month, but I think I’ve been holding it in. Suppressing it down down deep. But it’s seeping out. You noxious gas of a feeling. Maybe it will fill my room and I’ll never wake up. None the wiser; deceased from grief. I’ll see you then, huh?
As down as I was like 3 minutes ago…I have found a new happy thing. I just need to watch my video of us arriving at and leaving Neverland and it makes me giggle. Even my Neverland Deer video (with the Neverland Deer song as the score) is silly.
I can feel the sorrow welling up inside me again. I’ve done pretty well for the past month, but I think I’ve been holding it in. Suppressing it down down deep. But it’s seeping out. You noxious gas of a feeling. Maybe it will fill my room and I’ll never wake up. None the wiser; deceased from grief. I’ll see you then, huh?
As down as I was like 3 minutes ago…I have found a new happy thing. I just need to watch my video of us arriving at and leaving Neverland and it makes me giggle. Even my Neverland Deer video (with the Neverland Deer song as the score) is silly.
September 9 2009- Worrying, Tancho Sticks, and my disappointment in Ellen
September 9 2009
How do you not worry over things you cannot change? If those things plague you during the day and haunt you at night, how do you not worry if you can’t escape it?
Ah ha, after getting my hair did today I have realized that Jermaine slicks that stuff down with a tancho stick!
I am really interested in reading that magazine with the Janet interview about Mike. I am still really afraid to watch that awards show. This just hurts so badly. I am not sure I could have held it together long enough to get through a rehearsal. I hate the world. Why in the hell is Ellen the new judge of American idol… I used to like her.
How do you not worry over things you cannot change? If those things plague you during the day and haunt you at night, how do you not worry if you can’t escape it?
Ah ha, after getting my hair did today I have realized that Jermaine slicks that stuff down with a tancho stick!
I am really interested in reading that magazine with the Janet interview about Mike. I am still really afraid to watch that awards show. This just hurts so badly. I am not sure I could have held it together long enough to get through a rehearsal. I hate the world. Why in the hell is Ellen the new judge of American idol… I used to like her.
Did I see Mayte? Molestation? Vienna Snausages? Irritating Ass British Black Man Must Die!
I’m wounded. The shrapnel of loss will forever be stuck in my heart causing me to limp through life.
6:42am…why is there a dead black cow/bull on the side of the SB 14 about one mile from the Santa Clarita Soledad Canyon? There are no cow pastures around here. That came off of somebody’s truck! Why’d they leave it there like that?
I remember something else from Neverland…there were at least 3 cameras that I could see at the gate area…and gnats. Maybe those gnats in my dream were Neverland gnats!
Do eagles really scream?
Wait, would the Beatles Rock Band video game have anything to do with the ATV Catalog? I’d guess they’d have to get permission to use the songs.
Why are some hospitals named “so in so memorial?” I equate memorial with dead and I don’t want to be at St. John’s Dead Hospital.
Why can’t I sleep on the bus this morning? I’m afraid I’ve been making the wrong decisions.
My MP3 player has forsaken me. It played 3 Mike songs in a row and I telepathically emoted that I could take no more than 2 Mike songs in a row when alone.
The colleagues want to listen to whatever I listen to. So we hook the MP3 player up to a desktop. All the thing plays in 1995 R&B! Of all the times. I needed to showcase my diversity! Gosh my lunch sucks. I’m getting burned out on these bowl appetites. And Guess What! This damn thing has 1010 mg of sodium! SALT! Lord Jesus! I’m done. I think I’m going to buy some stuff to make salad for the rest of the week.
Wait a minute! I’m like 3-4 days late, but I think I saw Mayte (Garcia) judging one of those “So You Think You’re America’s Best Ass Off Stars” shows.
Genuine question: Why is it that a large number if men/boys who have been molested eventually are gay? And for that matter why are girls who are molested eventually promiscuous? Because of the trauma you’d think one would be as far away as possible from intercourse. Just wondering.
I don’t really care to see this Vienna Tribute. I don’t want to hear all of these people singing Mike songs. I don’t think I can take watching Janet’s VMA performance. This British black dude on the TV Guide Channel is like someone scratching a chalk board. I wish he’d just fall into a sink hole and get stuck at the center of the earth.
6:42am…why is there a dead black cow/bull on the side of the SB 14 about one mile from the Santa Clarita Soledad Canyon? There are no cow pastures around here. That came off of somebody’s truck! Why’d they leave it there like that?
I remember something else from Neverland…there were at least 3 cameras that I could see at the gate area…and gnats. Maybe those gnats in my dream were Neverland gnats!
Do eagles really scream?
Wait, would the Beatles Rock Band video game have anything to do with the ATV Catalog? I’d guess they’d have to get permission to use the songs.
Why are some hospitals named “so in so memorial?” I equate memorial with dead and I don’t want to be at St. John’s Dead Hospital.
Why can’t I sleep on the bus this morning? I’m afraid I’ve been making the wrong decisions.
My MP3 player has forsaken me. It played 3 Mike songs in a row and I telepathically emoted that I could take no more than 2 Mike songs in a row when alone.
The colleagues want to listen to whatever I listen to. So we hook the MP3 player up to a desktop. All the thing plays in 1995 R&B! Of all the times. I needed to showcase my diversity! Gosh my lunch sucks. I’m getting burned out on these bowl appetites. And Guess What! This damn thing has 1010 mg of sodium! SALT! Lord Jesus! I’m done. I think I’m going to buy some stuff to make salad for the rest of the week.
Wait a minute! I’m like 3-4 days late, but I think I saw Mayte (Garcia) judging one of those “So You Think You’re America’s Best Ass Off Stars” shows.
Genuine question: Why is it that a large number if men/boys who have been molested eventually are gay? And for that matter why are girls who are molested eventually promiscuous? Because of the trauma you’d think one would be as far away as possible from intercourse. Just wondering.
I don’t really care to see this Vienna Tribute. I don’t want to hear all of these people singing Mike songs. I don’t think I can take watching Janet’s VMA performance. This British black dude on the TV Guide Channel is like someone scratching a chalk board. I wish he’d just fall into a sink hole and get stuck at the center of the earth.
He breaks glass on the KKK and N Words!
Oh, I remembered something else from that 25 most shocking outrageous moments show on the TV Guide Channel. They showed snippets of the uncensored version of Black or White. I don’t recall ever seeing it. I think there was a swastika, KKK, and N word that he was hitting when he was breaking all of that glass.
For the most part when Black comedians (maybe Black people for that matter) make Mike jokes they don’t tear him down. They make observations, but don’t attack. There is a recognition, a respect, a line they do not cross. But White people go for the sucker punch. They are cruel and personally make it a mission to attack and just drag his name through the murkiest of muds. They press negative button after negative button.
I need a break from it all. Just everything. I need to shut down for like 5 days in a remote place far far away from everything. They don’t care. He’s not theirs. No matter how hard he tried he’s not theirs.
There’s a special place under hell for Martin Bashir. He is like the real world equivalent of me wanting to put hands on Benjamin Linus from Lost.
For the most part when Black comedians (maybe Black people for that matter) make Mike jokes they don’t tear him down. They make observations, but don’t attack. There is a recognition, a respect, a line they do not cross. But White people go for the sucker punch. They are cruel and personally make it a mission to attack and just drag his name through the murkiest of muds. They press negative button after negative button.
I need a break from it all. Just everything. I need to shut down for like 5 days in a remote place far far away from everything. They don’t care. He’s not theirs. No matter how hard he tried he’s not theirs.
There’s a special place under hell for Martin Bashir. He is like the real world equivalent of me wanting to put hands on Benjamin Linus from Lost.
September 8 2009- Dreams and Maladies
September 8 2009
Last night I had a dream that our house (which is not our current house) was infested with gnats. So needless to say I woke up scratching. It was actually a very early morning dream. I didn’t get a good nights sleep. I never even got into a deep sleep. Tossed and turned.
Is there a malady more detrimental to one’s soul than to be misunderstood?
I was listening to Sometimes You Make Me Smile by Floetry and it makes me feel Mike.
The 5, 6, &7 AM hours are such evil times. I hate early mornings.
What will be my sacrifice?
I hope he says well done when my time is over.
What is it that you want to say when you run out of things to say?
I’ve got to put my self first.
Last night I had a dream that our house (which is not our current house) was infested with gnats. So needless to say I woke up scratching. It was actually a very early morning dream. I didn’t get a good nights sleep. I never even got into a deep sleep. Tossed and turned.
Is there a malady more detrimental to one’s soul than to be misunderstood?
I was listening to Sometimes You Make Me Smile by Floetry and it makes me feel Mike.
The 5, 6, &7 AM hours are such evil times. I hate early mornings.
What will be my sacrifice?
I hope he says well done when my time is over.
What is it that you want to say when you run out of things to say?
I’ve got to put my self first.
Monday, September 7, 2009
Smokey and that Flex Mike movie again
September 7 2009
Can I just say that Smokey Robinson is one of the most insightful, far reaching, and effective talkers I have ever seen. That dude right there, he comes from a good place when he opens his mouth. I could just listen to him talk forever. He said that when he heard Mike had passed his psyche just couldn’t accept it. My psyche is still struggling with that whole acceptance thing. I also learned that Berry Gordy wrote songs for Jackie Wilson. I should watch Tavis Smiley more often.
This Flex Michael Jackson movie is really interesting. That little sick Ryan looking kid looks like Greg from Everybody Hates Chris, but I’m not 100% on that. They really showcase the plastic surgery on this one. All of that crap has to hurt. Like your face just has to hurt and you can’t rightly east sometimes. Cosmetic surgery is an interesting science. Flex is doing a pretty good job. They got permission to use the real Asian fans going crazy at the sight of Mike footage. OOH why Mama Kate say that all the publicity from the 1st accusation killed his grandpa! OOHWEE, this movie is good! Elizabeth Taylor sho' nuff all up in the mix. Oh damn they done sent him to the rehab in London! NO NO NO!
Damn ,LaToya said something damaging! Glad I wasn’t a fan and too little to really care. That would have hurt really badly. Just watching this movie hurts. Oh this is just bad. Very bad. I can’t even write about this. Oh, the sex scene thingy is like she is trying to seduce him and he is like I don’t believe is sex before marriage and then he pulls out the engagement ring. Wait, this is like that episode of Fresh Prince with Kim Fields!
Shanice is lucky. Flex could get it. Does he have a younger, just as cute and tall younger brother who IS NOT a sigma?
Can I just say that Smokey Robinson is one of the most insightful, far reaching, and effective talkers I have ever seen. That dude right there, he comes from a good place when he opens his mouth. I could just listen to him talk forever. He said that when he heard Mike had passed his psyche just couldn’t accept it. My psyche is still struggling with that whole acceptance thing. I also learned that Berry Gordy wrote songs for Jackie Wilson. I should watch Tavis Smiley more often.
This Flex Michael Jackson movie is really interesting. That little sick Ryan looking kid looks like Greg from Everybody Hates Chris, but I’m not 100% on that. They really showcase the plastic surgery on this one. All of that crap has to hurt. Like your face just has to hurt and you can’t rightly east sometimes. Cosmetic surgery is an interesting science. Flex is doing a pretty good job. They got permission to use the real Asian fans going crazy at the sight of Mike footage. OOH why Mama Kate say that all the publicity from the 1st accusation killed his grandpa! OOHWEE, this movie is good! Elizabeth Taylor sho' nuff all up in the mix. Oh damn they done sent him to the rehab in London! NO NO NO!
Damn ,LaToya said something damaging! Glad I wasn’t a fan and too little to really care. That would have hurt really badly. Just watching this movie hurts. Oh this is just bad. Very bad. I can’t even write about this. Oh, the sex scene thingy is like she is trying to seduce him and he is like I don’t believe is sex before marriage and then he pulls out the engagement ring. Wait, this is like that episode of Fresh Prince with Kim Fields!
Shanice is lucky. Flex could get it. Does he have a younger, just as cute and tall younger brother who IS NOT a sigma?
September 4 2009
September 4 2009
As sure as shit stinks fans showed up at Forest Lawn. The 2 people that ABC 7 interviewed spoke well. I can’t be too upset because they were able to express themselves well and I hope the media leaves Prince Michael alone. They have footage of him outside of the Pasadena restaurant the family went to after the service. It was so late though…could you really eat Italian food after 11pm?
Last night I wrote “for everything about yourself you didn’t like, I’ll like it enough for both of us.” We all have our demons. Those things about ourselves we sometimes can’t stand to look at. It would be nice to find someone to love me like that. Unconditional love is hard to find; even among family. You’ll always know that your family loves you, but it’s not that kind of love that makes you feel full, overwhelmed, basked in adoration.
Prince was right. “Love’s too weak to define just what you mean to me.”
I really don’t like Brian McKnight. I think it stems from me hearing his divorce was caused by his infidelity.
Ooh, I just remembered something. Headline News said Rev. Al Sharpton was twittering before the service started. Updating kind of what was going on. Why Rev? Why? There was this dude named Gotham on Larry King who was Mike’s friend. Gotham is a cool name, Making a mental not of that. I want kids just to name them cool names. Gotham, Michael Renee, Shaolin Dozier.
Humh, rolodexing my brain and I’ve noticed that whomever chose the photos of Mike to be used didn’t choose man recent ones, For instance, the photo on the front of the official memorial program, the photo used as the slide show lead, that one the back of whatever program the kids were holding at last night’s funeral, and the photo up front to sit at the sides of the casket were all of BAD era Mike.
Thanks to the colleagues who are supporting my Michael Jackson habit. We walked past a paper box for the Daily News and Mike’s funeral was on the cover. I had an unsure moment and jumped around in pure indecision. One colleague was like “I know you want it!” The other forced 50 cents on me. I got the past paper in the box. See, it’s the little things.
OOH! And a colleague said that Mac and Mila Kunis are together. Who knew? He picked good. She’s pretty. Hey, I craned my neck on the bus again to get a look at Forest Lawn and that Castle building looks like the same building from TV last night. Really can’t see much from the 2 outside of that building and about 2-3 green hills/mini mountains and a building with a cross on top of one of the hills.
Oh hell! How did I just stumble upon that TV Guide Channel playing that Mike movie I heard about with Flex? It’s weird! Flex is all make up having on like. He is just….ewwww! “Hey baby come roll with Mike.” HAAAA! And he’s trying to Mack to Lisa Marie. This is funny. I wonder who made the wigs. Nice! Whoa, there’s a scene of him and Lisa Marie frolicking and it’s like a Mike love song. I don’t think I’m ready for this visual. Oh Hell Naw! A love/sex scene. Whoa, glad he proposed instead of. Uh oh. Oh fuck fuck fuck fuck. He done laid her down on the bed and they are kissing. CHANNEL IS TURNED! Flex is doing a good job though. Who is this Bobby dude? Flex does a nice Mike voice. Oh no Lisa Mari’s kids want to go home. Oh, Mike was doing the Step Daddy! Had to be difficult being married to him. Gosh, it’s hard to watch this, but hard to NOT watch this.
HA! Why did he marry Debbie at the house. The official is like…I now pronounce you blah blah blah and Mike just says Thank You and leaves preggers Debbie standing there. Hil-fuckin-arious! Why is Diana Ross the flashback fairy godmother? The Mike wigs are very nice replicas. Man, looked like Mike had on mascara or fake lashes on in the I didn’t do it 1st accusation statement.
I just really don’t appreciate people comparing Mike to funky ass Elvis Presley. It angers me.
As sure as shit stinks fans showed up at Forest Lawn. The 2 people that ABC 7 interviewed spoke well. I can’t be too upset because they were able to express themselves well and I hope the media leaves Prince Michael alone. They have footage of him outside of the Pasadena restaurant the family went to after the service. It was so late though…could you really eat Italian food after 11pm?
Last night I wrote “for everything about yourself you didn’t like, I’ll like it enough for both of us.” We all have our demons. Those things about ourselves we sometimes can’t stand to look at. It would be nice to find someone to love me like that. Unconditional love is hard to find; even among family. You’ll always know that your family loves you, but it’s not that kind of love that makes you feel full, overwhelmed, basked in adoration.
Prince was right. “Love’s too weak to define just what you mean to me.”
I really don’t like Brian McKnight. I think it stems from me hearing his divorce was caused by his infidelity.
Ooh, I just remembered something. Headline News said Rev. Al Sharpton was twittering before the service started. Updating kind of what was going on. Why Rev? Why? There was this dude named Gotham on Larry King who was Mike’s friend. Gotham is a cool name, Making a mental not of that. I want kids just to name them cool names. Gotham, Michael Renee, Shaolin Dozier.
Humh, rolodexing my brain and I’ve noticed that whomever chose the photos of Mike to be used didn’t choose man recent ones, For instance, the photo on the front of the official memorial program, the photo used as the slide show lead, that one the back of whatever program the kids were holding at last night’s funeral, and the photo up front to sit at the sides of the casket were all of BAD era Mike.
Thanks to the colleagues who are supporting my Michael Jackson habit. We walked past a paper box for the Daily News and Mike’s funeral was on the cover. I had an unsure moment and jumped around in pure indecision. One colleague was like “I know you want it!” The other forced 50 cents on me. I got the past paper in the box. See, it’s the little things.
OOH! And a colleague said that Mac and Mila Kunis are together. Who knew? He picked good. She’s pretty. Hey, I craned my neck on the bus again to get a look at Forest Lawn and that Castle building looks like the same building from TV last night. Really can’t see much from the 2 outside of that building and about 2-3 green hills/mini mountains and a building with a cross on top of one of the hills.
Oh hell! How did I just stumble upon that TV Guide Channel playing that Mike movie I heard about with Flex? It’s weird! Flex is all make up having on like. He is just….ewwww! “Hey baby come roll with Mike.” HAAAA! And he’s trying to Mack to Lisa Marie. This is funny. I wonder who made the wigs. Nice! Whoa, there’s a scene of him and Lisa Marie frolicking and it’s like a Mike love song. I don’t think I’m ready for this visual. Oh Hell Naw! A love/sex scene. Whoa, glad he proposed instead of. Uh oh. Oh fuck fuck fuck fuck. He done laid her down on the bed and they are kissing. CHANNEL IS TURNED! Flex is doing a good job though. Who is this Bobby dude? Flex does a nice Mike voice. Oh no Lisa Mari’s kids want to go home. Oh, Mike was doing the Step Daddy! Had to be difficult being married to him. Gosh, it’s hard to watch this, but hard to NOT watch this.
HA! Why did he marry Debbie at the house. The official is like…I now pronounce you blah blah blah and Mike just says Thank You and leaves preggers Debbie standing there. Hil-fuckin-arious! Why is Diana Ross the flashback fairy godmother? The Mike wigs are very nice replicas. Man, looked like Mike had on mascara or fake lashes on in the I didn’t do it 1st accusation statement.
I just really don’t appreciate people comparing Mike to funky ass Elvis Presley. It angers me.
September 6 2009 I WENT TO NEVERLAND!
September 6 2009
I finally made it to Neverland! It took like 3 hours to get there because of beach traffic. Damn you beachgoers! Anyway, when we got there there were already people out there basking in the Neverland Magic. That place is deep up under the cut. I mean, you really feel like “I gotta be lost” but you’re not. To get there off the 101 you have to go up this windy meandering, high in the sky mountain road with nice views, but very dangerous for the novice driver. Then the land kind of evens out and you are in Santa Barbara wine country, like a couple of miles from Solvang. I think it is called the Chumash Highway. Yay for Native Americans! Then you hook a right on Figueroa Road and you drive for like 10 miles looking at nice black Hereford cows. You’d so pass it if no one were out there because there is no sign indicating the address. And until he passed there was nothing in front of the property to identify it; just a big brown gate. The wreaths put up by that florist say Neverland on the left gate and Once Upon A Time on the right gate. I laid my poem and two pink roses out for him. I was the only person to bring something to leave in the hour that I was there. It’s cool because people will read my poem. I took my pictures. There were a lot of families out there. There was a black family out there when we arrived, but for the most part all of the visitors were White and Hispanic. People had written all over the outside wall; messages of love for Michael. I had to hustle on writing utensils to find something to write with. I came up with a highlighter and some colored lip gloss. I wrote the message I LOVE YOU MIKE on the left wall. I wish I could have written more, but it was hard with the space I could find, the unevenness of the stone surface, and my lip gloss and highlighter. There’s also a rudimentary heart drawn around my message; very rudimentary. Guess what else we saw A NEVERLAND DEER! Yea Chile, about 50 yards from the guard shack was a deer just eating the Neverland grass.
I met a lady and her adult son out there; they were from Missouri! Well the subject of Missouri came up when some people kind of slowed down to read my license plate and I said to Alesia “people are always staring at my license plate like MISSOURI?” The lady over heard and was like I’m from Missouri. I was like where at? She was like Cape Girardeau. I was like SEMO! She was surprised to know I knew the school. I also mentioned Lamberts. Her son now lives out in LA and she’s in visiting. He still has his Missouri plates too. I also heard the most touching thing. Like I said most of the people there brought their kids. A man was standing taking pictures of the gate and stuff and his little daughter (who couldn’t have been more than 4) asked him something and he replied because daddy listened to his music when I was growing up. The same way you like the Jonas’. That was so touching. I appreciate how you see generations of people all out there visiting, loving Mike. In any given family there were 2-4 generations. Everything from grandparents to arm babies. One group of people brought their chairs and just sat out on the side of the road facing the property; just taking it all in. At any given time there were from between 5 and 30 people out there. It’s funny how before he passed you could not find the damn address to the place. I just mapquested Neverland Ranch Friday and the address popped up 5225 Figueroa Road Los Olivos, CA 93441. Now ya'll know I’ve committed it to memory.
Let me tell you. Just at the main gate it is so peaceful and serene. I mean the way the wind blows through the trees. The freshness of the air. I know I am more receptive to this than others, but I see why he chose this spot as his haven. It’s so magical. Like, it just feels so still. So very still. Although there is life teeming all around you it’s very easy to be there. You just breathe, be , feel, listen. It felt free. It felt good…and this was just at the main gate. Imagine the Euphoria if you were to actually get near the did up parts of the property. I even took a picture of the access code box thingy. There was some kind of vine plant growing on the wall with one single solitary purple flower growing from it. I don’t know if people took the rest of the flowers, but I found that interesting. There were also people taking the dead roses off the wreathes. I didn’t do that. I took two of the landscaped white flowers from the entrance. Darren, there was no Neverland grass to take. I know the landscaping people are going to be mad that people keep tampering with their work. At 6pm a bell tolled on the property across the road. I actually did see cows grazing on the land that was behind the Neverland gate. I remember reading some years back that Mike rented out or contracted out land for farmers to let their cows graze on.
I am glad I didn’t come shortly after he passed, it would have been damn near impossible to park within 1 mile of the place. It is truly a 2 lane road and the windy meandering road that leads to Figueroa is 2 lanes too. I know the rich white people were salty. Some asswipe even drove past the Neverland gate and yelled “let him go already.” Now, you know I have damned that white man into the eternal bowels of hell. Who the fuck are you to tell us when to let anybody go.” He could have just driven by. There was nothing or no one impeding his way. Fuckfaces like that will incite rage and a riot of mass murdering.
Anyway, on our way up there I promise you a Tarantula was crossing the road and I had to pass over it. I didn’t run it over, I just passed over it. I clammed up. I was clenching my booty cheeks even after I’d passed it. We drove through downtown Los Olivos. All of 2 block. It was the Mayberryest town I have ever seen in my life. Really quaint and full of places to taste wine. I am sure we were the only black people they’d seen today. It felt really white. Not the type of town I’d stop in for long. We are still in America, I ain’t stupid. We stopped by the Los Olivos Grocery Store. It was all mom and pop country store looking. We got expensive ass $10 burgers and ginger ale drinks. Sat outside on the covered patio thingy and looked at the country store cats. No, seriously the owners was taking care of some feral cats. Alesia asked the owner if Michael Jackson ever came to the store and the way his face went all rigid bothered me. Maybe he is tired of being asked about him. Maybe his name is the name the locals never say. It’s like the opposite of Pee wee Herman’s word of the day, but I won’t forget the way his face looked when she asked. He just got all rigid in the face and said no. His demeanor changed a bit. It felt cold. Like a frigid breeze came through an open window and blew out a candle.
I was pretty upbeat the whole time I was up there. A trip that I though was going to take like 5 hours too a good 10. I hit the high way at 1pm and didn’t get back home until 11pm. It was a good way to spend the day. Next time I go up that way I will go to the beach. Got to take advantage of the cool things about California while I can.
I have got to print out all of my picture and make a Mike 2009 scrapbook. The only Mike related place I have not been is the Holmny Hills place and I don’t rightly ever want to go there.
You can tell Mike’s mood by the way he walks. If he is in a pretty good mood he has a swagger, a kind of cat to his gait. There’s a slight bounce and his wiggy weave bounces right along with him. You can see it in his shoulders.
Was watching some fashion special about Mike on the TV Guide Channel. If I ever want to see what’s coming on TV kind of got to see it. They had the director of the Grammy Museum talking about the Mike jackets they have on display there. He said the jacket he wore to receive his star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame weighs 15 lbs. And sometimes when he tried on a finished jacket and it didn’t feel right he’d have some one weigh down the light side with coins. So some of his jackets could have quarters and 50 cent pieces in them!
I was having a pity party in the car once I dropped Alesia off. I didn’t let any tears fall, but something pinched my spleen, sending a shock waves of secretions to my extremities, some manifesting themselves as tears as I sank into the reality of today’s visit. It’s 1:03am. I guess I’ll try to calm my mind and fall asleep to whatever is on TV.
September 5 2009
September 5 2009
Funniest thing I’ve heard about Mike today. TV Guide Channel is all Mike all of the time lately and they were doing his most outrageous moments. Some black dude was talking about Mike’s fans and said Michael Jackson could walk out into the middle of the street and smack an old lady and the fans would ask “WHAT DID SHE DO TO MICHAEL?”
I can attest, I WOULD SO SAY THAT!
The craziest, most hilarious, ludicrous-est thing I have ever heard in my entire life…rumor has it Macaulay Culkin is Blanket’s biological father. Give it up already white people. He is not! Why does it even matter to you any fucking way? Leave the damn kids alone!
Funniest thing I’ve heard about Mike today. TV Guide Channel is all Mike all of the time lately and they were doing his most outrageous moments. Some black dude was talking about Mike’s fans and said Michael Jackson could walk out into the middle of the street and smack an old lady and the fans would ask “WHAT DID SHE DO TO MICHAEL?”
I can attest, I WOULD SO SAY THAT!
The craziest, most hilarious, ludicrous-est thing I have ever heard in my entire life…rumor has it Macaulay Culkin is Blanket’s biological father. Give it up already white people. He is not! Why does it even matter to you any fucking way? Leave the damn kids alone!
Friday, September 4, 2009
This is an absolute outrage!
I cannot believe this! There is a live feed of the funeral. I just feel that this should be private, but hey I ain’t all Hollywood. CNN is doing a good job of covering it. KCAL 9 started with breaking news about the service then cut into that with more breaking news about a high speed chase. How they on CPT? They started 1 ½ hrs late. Oh well. He will be in Freedom or Holy something and when I was on the bus on my way home I was stretching my neck trying to catch a glimpse of the cemetery and I saw a big castle like building, but no telling if that’s the one that was shown on TV. Sammy Davis Jr. is over there. I am not too keen on Mausoleums. I just seems like a lock up for the dead. Pretty, but quiet and cold. Needs warmth. I really don’t know how I feel. This 3rd funeral is just as surreal as the first 2. It’s like I see it, but I don’t fully accept it. I play along with everyone in acknowledging it, but in my heart of hearts it’s an absolutely unacceptable notion.
Headline News is running a recorded version of the service. They are doing a great job as well. It’s good that they are focusing on the positive. They said it still feels surreal. Like it just happened and for me it is not as fresh. My breakdowns are less frequent. I can function much better. Hey, I can watch headline news cover his funeral. They were just really pushing for people to remember his music, his legacy. Not the circumstances under which he passed. This is such a downer.
I love you. I love you. I love every one of your faces. Everything about yourself you didn’t like I liked enough for us both. You are a testament to how no matter what; your message endures. If not how could I have fallen in love so many years after the media had turned on you. How is it that I can become a devoted fan in 1998? How do you dedicate your adoration in the way that I have.
OOH, that reporter guy said it was a full moon tonight. How fitting and interesting. Umh, Diana Ross didn’t show up. I worry for her. Chris Tucker and Mac were there…and Mila Kunis was sitting talking to Mac. Gladys Knight sang some song. I like her voice. Guess that Aretha story didn’t pan out. I have yet to describe my grief, my loss, my hurt, my anger, my confusion. I just don’t think there are words yet, to describe it. I’ve been writing everyday since June 25 2009 and I still haven’t been able to really convey how deeply rooted and all consuming this is for me. I am not a screamer or a yeller. I may talk loud, but scream/yell…I just don’t do it. I am starting to think a body shuddering scream that would shake trees and make birds spring from its branches would free this dark stain from my heart and mind, but how do you even do that? I’m probably going to cry when I lie down tonight.
Headline News is running a recorded version of the service. They are doing a great job as well. It’s good that they are focusing on the positive. They said it still feels surreal. Like it just happened and for me it is not as fresh. My breakdowns are less frequent. I can function much better. Hey, I can watch headline news cover his funeral. They were just really pushing for people to remember his music, his legacy. Not the circumstances under which he passed. This is such a downer.
I love you. I love you. I love every one of your faces. Everything about yourself you didn’t like I liked enough for us both. You are a testament to how no matter what; your message endures. If not how could I have fallen in love so many years after the media had turned on you. How is it that I can become a devoted fan in 1998? How do you dedicate your adoration in the way that I have.
OOH, that reporter guy said it was a full moon tonight. How fitting and interesting. Umh, Diana Ross didn’t show up. I worry for her. Chris Tucker and Mac were there…and Mila Kunis was sitting talking to Mac. Gladys Knight sang some song. I like her voice. Guess that Aretha story didn’t pan out. I have yet to describe my grief, my loss, my hurt, my anger, my confusion. I just don’t think there are words yet, to describe it. I’ve been writing everyday since June 25 2009 and I still haven’t been able to really convey how deeply rooted and all consuming this is for me. I am not a screamer or a yeller. I may talk loud, but scream/yell…I just don’t do it. I am starting to think a body shuddering scream that would shake trees and make birds spring from its branches would free this dark stain from my heart and mind, but how do you even do that? I’m probably going to cry when I lie down tonight.
DAMN! 7+4=6
DAMN! 7+4=6. Rick James plays that Gangster that sent Eddie and Martin on that run down south on Life! The connection- the Eddie, Rick, and Charlie stories on Dave Chappell.
Cholesterol tests and maps of LA...trying to find Forest Lawn
Went to get my cholesterol test and one of the ladies who works in the clinic lives near Forest Lawn and was worried about how she’s get home because of Mike’s burial She pulled out a map and we looked over alternate ways to get her home. She was so sweet. She said the Mausoleums are like the size of the Federal Building across from us. She has an uncle buried there and they usually police the grounds pretty well. If your family ain’t over here you have no business over there and they see to it that the graves are safe. She said its also very windy (winding roads) and hilly and easy to get lost. Guess I won’t be visiting his mausoleum plaque thingy. She (the clinic lady) is worried about fans just coming and parking to be in the area. I was being optimistic and saying that people will show respect and she looked at me like “Girl Please!” It just upsets me to the point of tears that you would disrespect him and his family like that. How can you love him and not give him his space? Not give his family their space? You can rest assured that for every tear, every pain in your heart; they are feeling it 10 fold. Why would you go there if they are asking you not to? I don’t understand. How cab you be so selfish? As I write this I have to bat my eyes to keep from crying. I just don’t understand how people can be so cruel. I am angry. I expressed my feeling to about the issue to a colleague and my voice started to crack.
God Radio Sucks!
God Radio Sucks! I don’t remember it being so bad growing up. Maybe it’s LA radio. 104.7 is the best because they mix it up and player older music; even east coast rap. They played Luchini by Camp Lo once and I about lost my mind.
Funniest thing to happen this week on national television
I got sent a link to Whitney Houston on the Today Show. It’s hilarious. It’s over; just throw in the towel. I’ve never heard her sound that bad. It’s sad. She’s in my barrel right above Kanye West
Mike's 3 funerals and Off The Wall hurts the most
It just dawned on me that Mike will have 3 funerals. I have to avoid just about every song from OTW when alone. I’m glad the Glendale PD and the media re all about discouraging people from trying to get anywhere near Forest Lawn. Dude from the funeral home even said that they were turning on a the het sensing cameras to make sure that no one comes near the property in the middle of the night who is not supposed to be there. I wonder exactly where it’s at. There’s a Forest Lawn Drive off the 134 in Burbank, but the media has referred to it as being in the Hollywood Hills and Glendale. Guess it’s pretty big.
September 3 2009 Lyric of the day
September 3 2009
“Though we’re tried in the fire we come out as pure gold.”
~Pure Gold by The Clark Sisters
“Though we’re tried in the fire we come out as pure gold.”
~Pure Gold by The Clark Sisters
A contradicting culture of dishonesty- A Poem
A contradicting culture of dishonesty- A Poem
How righteously misguided are the supposedly highly educated. You talk a good game. Run a good con. Dance the dance of the flickering flame. You finesse. You caress. You romance. But at the end of the day…I see the lies. How not genuine are you? I don’t trust you as far as I can throw you. You smile. Tell tall tales, even buy a thing or two, but at your core there is something more. Someone I do not trust. Oh how horrible are Americans, but guess what nigga; you here with us! The educated are oft times the most dangerous. With that I’m sure you’d agree, but in all honesty I clearly see a difference between him and me. I’ll keep working. Playing the part. But it’s only a matter of time before you get your orders and blow us all apart.
How righteously misguided are the supposedly highly educated. You talk a good game. Run a good con. Dance the dance of the flickering flame. You finesse. You caress. You romance. But at the end of the day…I see the lies. How not genuine are you? I don’t trust you as far as I can throw you. You smile. Tell tall tales, even buy a thing or two, but at your core there is something more. Someone I do not trust. Oh how horrible are Americans, but guess what nigga; you here with us! The educated are oft times the most dangerous. With that I’m sure you’d agree, but in all honesty I clearly see a difference between him and me. I’ll keep working. Playing the part. But it’s only a matter of time before you get your orders and blow us all apart.
These MF’s is lyin’
These MF’s is lyin’. Ain’t no way Marlon gonna give the blow by blow of the burial. AND an open casket?!?!? How in the hell are you supposed to do that? It’s been over 2 months. They lyin’ They lyin’ They lyin’ damn British! That is crazy. Absolutely absurd. Talking about some long flowing wig and blah blah make up artist. Why would you reopen this can of worms? If you want someone one on one time fine, but to just have it open like that for everybody. That shit is crazy. Ooh, the caucausoids! Umh. I totally forgot that I read reports that the funeral was supposed to me tomorrow. Guess you block out what you don’t want to believe.
I feel antsy. Unsure.
I feel antsy. Unsure.
In response to LaToya’s “Home”…
In response to LaToya’s “Home”…
I'm skerred Mac. On first listen down low and not watching the video...it sounded like Gregorian chants. on the 2nd go round I tried watching. It was pretty. She was killing that white dress. tastefully done. she wishes she looked like that when she was 11. Something about many years ago. I really don’t know what all she said cause I was too afraid to focus on it and REALLY afraid they would show a photo of him and I would cry. I got nervous when they showed the picture at the end and this janky ass computer froze up when I tried closing the window and I had to see the picture even longer than I wanted to. I'll never fully accept this. Yea, I read it. See it, hear it. but will never believe it. And don’t lecture me! I now understand how people can live on hope. Just that little flickering flame. Like your son is MIA in WWII and you never give up hope that he'll come knocking on the door one day. Sometimes you hear something and think its him so you call his name. And when you're old and senile you talk to him. Like The Majestic Movie with Jim Carey and Martin Landau.
I'm skerred Mac. On first listen down low and not watching the video...it sounded like Gregorian chants. on the 2nd go round I tried watching. It was pretty. She was killing that white dress. tastefully done. she wishes she looked like that when she was 11. Something about many years ago. I really don’t know what all she said cause I was too afraid to focus on it and REALLY afraid they would show a photo of him and I would cry. I got nervous when they showed the picture at the end and this janky ass computer froze up when I tried closing the window and I had to see the picture even longer than I wanted to. I'll never fully accept this. Yea, I read it. See it, hear it. but will never believe it. And don’t lecture me! I now understand how people can live on hope. Just that little flickering flame. Like your son is MIA in WWII and you never give up hope that he'll come knocking on the door one day. Sometimes you hear something and think its him so you call his name. And when you're old and senile you talk to him. Like The Majestic Movie with Jim Carey and Martin Landau.
A Mother's Happiness
As a mother with a daughter it must really do your heart some good and make you cry happy tears to see her as a young adult; respectful, responsible, and independent. You can be proud and say to yourself “I did that.”
I just gotta put it out into the universe
People are a trip. How are you going to put me on front street for saying that Frank Sinatra was just an old white dude whose music I don’t care for, but then brag about how your peoples commit genocide against Indians like clock work every 500 years? And tout the fact that you don’t like Indians. I’m the closed minded one because I don’t like a person’s music and acknowledge the fact that in my lifetime he was old and white? Clearly your mind ain’t that open to the descendants of those who did your peoples wrong. You talk a good game sonny boy; a good game.
September 2 2009
September 2 2009
I forgot, yesterday I saw a Hype Hair magazine dedicated to Mike and it said something across the top about “from the perspective of black women.” I thought to myself (In ALF voice) HA, Black women! Things are starting to die down now. It’s cool that he’s not in the news, but I am afraid people will forget.
I am also afraid Chris Brown’s career is over. He had a lot of white fans and they are about to drop his ass like a bad habit. He is about to start his decent into obscurity like Bobby Brown; sans drugs and 1 nearly 10 years old career. Bob didn’t have the crossover audience though.
I forgot, yesterday I saw a Hype Hair magazine dedicated to Mike and it said something across the top about “from the perspective of black women.” I thought to myself (In ALF voice) HA, Black women! Things are starting to die down now. It’s cool that he’s not in the news, but I am afraid people will forget.
I am also afraid Chris Brown’s career is over. He had a lot of white fans and they are about to drop his ass like a bad habit. He is about to start his decent into obscurity like Bobby Brown; sans drugs and 1 nearly 10 years old career. Bob didn’t have the crossover audience though.
Putewey goes Tito!
The TV Guide Channel is still covering Mike and they said Taj was Mike’s assistant and may have been at the house when Mike passed. And let me tell you…based on that footage they showed of him HE IS SWOLE! He may have a year or 4 on me, but boy if Tito didn’t spit him out. I mean PUTEWEY! And unfortunately he’s still wearing that braided bob from 15 years ago. That Anything For You teenybopper song was my jam back in 94.
Quote of the day and my sensitive self
Quote of the day:
“Genetically, race does not exist.”
~Kevin Bacon narrating National Geographic’s “The Human Family Tree”
Why am I such a sentimental person? Watching the visual from The Human Family Tree of all of the participants spread out across a field with a CG graphic of the continent drawn around them to indicate their Y chromosome’s origin. The started in the Americas and they merged with eastern Asia then they merged with Eurasia then they merged with Europe then they all merged with the 8 black folks standing in Africa. I teared up. Now being a part of research like that would be an awesome.
“Genetically, race does not exist.”
~Kevin Bacon narrating National Geographic’s “The Human Family Tree”
Why am I such a sentimental person? Watching the visual from The Human Family Tree of all of the participants spread out across a field with a CG graphic of the continent drawn around them to indicate their Y chromosome’s origin. The started in the Americas and they merged with eastern Asia then they merged with Eurasia then they merged with Europe then they all merged with the 8 black folks standing in Africa. I teared up. Now being a part of research like that would be an awesome.
September 1 2009-the Good Humor people need their asses whupped
September 1 2009
I would just like to say…the Good Humor people need their asses whupped. I had a sundae cone (from the grocer’s freezer) and it was horrible. Very small and just subpar. I remember being able to get a nice sized drumstick cone. Maybe it’s a brand thing. I just know I won’t buy Good Humor again.
I don’t think I’ll ever be anything happier than just OK. Can’t even summon up the energy to be optimistic right now.
I think my body has gotten used to not eating a lot. If I eat a decent breakfast with eggs and meat, I can’t eat lunch.
I think I just saw a one legged pigeon. Maybe it was just standing on one leg with the other tucked, but I’ve never seen a pigeon tuck a leg like a flamingo. I like seeing all of the many different people at Union Station. It’s like a rainbow. People will capitalize on anything. Why was there a tent selling Station Fire T shirts off the 210?
I would just like to say…the Good Humor people need their asses whupped. I had a sundae cone (from the grocer’s freezer) and it was horrible. Very small and just subpar. I remember being able to get a nice sized drumstick cone. Maybe it’s a brand thing. I just know I won’t buy Good Humor again.
I don’t think I’ll ever be anything happier than just OK. Can’t even summon up the energy to be optimistic right now.
I think my body has gotten used to not eating a lot. If I eat a decent breakfast with eggs and meat, I can’t eat lunch.
I think I just saw a one legged pigeon. Maybe it was just standing on one leg with the other tucked, but I’ve never seen a pigeon tuck a leg like a flamingo. I like seeing all of the many different people at Union Station. It’s like a rainbow. People will capitalize on anything. Why was there a tent selling Station Fire T shirts off the 210?
The Station Fire, Mike is the Energizer Bunny, and the Anti- Travel Bug
August 31 2009
2 days since his birthday. I think you can get so wrapped up in the celebration that you forget to be sad. Or it’s a deep seeded denial. Then it just hits you like a ton of bricks. Emotions are the greatest human frailty. Questlove played that one weird 80’s reggae sounding song from the Torture album; just the instrumental. Stopped by the gas station to get water this morning. They had Mike cigarette lighters. Not as bad as the Mike switchblade I saw on EBay some years back.
The fire has spread up the 14. It’s on the south side in the direction of the train tracks. OMG! The Wild Animal Paradise is over there! That is the place that has a lion, tiger, liger, panther, or something that belonged to Mike. Fires are so scary. They are beautiful destruction, yet a renewal/rebirth of life within the forest. God’s way of starting things all over again.
The dude with the ponytail is sitting in front of me again on the commuter bus and it’s just as upsetting as it was last week.
I’m glad we’ve moved further away from the mountain range. The fire is in Acton which in mountain very close in mountain ranginess perspective. I hope I don’t have any breathing issues as I don’t have nary an inhaler. Damn air quality!
Joe put his foot in Frankie Beverly’s Can’t Get Over You. It sounds so smooth and clear. I am interested in this tribute album.
Oh, I just remembered something. An anomaly happened when I was in Inglewood at the NPHC Picnic (and by the way, I didn’t get shot): They played Atomic Dog and no Bruhs set it out. After the DJ stopped the music I called them out one 40 yr old Bruh got out there by himself…and I eventually saw 3 younger looking dudes strolling. But Omegas don’t stroll to Atomic Dog! They jump around all crazed like. A damn shame. These West Coast Bruhs are wack. I am just still appalled by it all. The sorors had to set it out. One thing that I have noticed…I am not particularly motivated to fellowship with sorors outside of my chapter because of the cold welcome I received when first coming out here. It’s like…what the point is because they’re going to act all LA.
Where’s Tweet? Her first album was great. One of the few albums I can listen to all of the way through. I remember watching concert footage of her singing in some small venue and she was hoarse. Need a lozenge or something. She made some kind of excuse and looked nervous and lame. He weaves were really cute.
OOOHHH! Tevin Campbell’s Always In My Heart and Karyn White’s Can I Stay With You are essentially the same song instrumentally. LaFace was real lazy the melody department. Just recycled a lot.
OOOH! I also forgot to report I FINALLY RECEIVED MY MIKE T-SHIRTS THAT I ORDERED…on his birthday! They look nice. I am especially excited about the one for the 1st night of the tour. Yay for the $80 T-shirts! Now to pay off the credit card.
DUN DUN DUN DUN DUN
DUN DUN
DUN DUN DUN
Name that beat!
I am just thinking back and I have met so many beautiful people and have had some beautiful moments Michaeling in LA
Oh, and a flash mob is when a group of people get together in a public place and suddenly break out dancing. The TTW guys did a Beat It flash mob Saturday. I couldn’t make either one. There was a bunch of guys who showed up to practice for the Beat It flash mob that looked like replacements for the Backstreet Boys. Seems the organizers pretty much mashed up the Beat It Choreography with that of the 1995 MTV Awards Dangerous performance.
I’m thinking back to the performance of Shakeabadadown in LA for Victory Tour. Sometimes Mike gets lost in what he’s doing. Like his body is just going, but you wonder if his mind is connected. It’s almost like an autopilot. He just be so hard and all over the stage. It’s like he covers every inch. It’s like you can see it in his eyes that he is concentrating so hard that it’s like a blank stare. He has done the song so much; the beat drops and he just goes. It’s like a hungry animal attacking or something. It’s almost energizer bunny-ish. I think there’s an instance during the BAD tour where he deviates from the script. It was a crazy church inspired ad-lib with a call and response. It was really moving. Soft and delicate. Reassuring yet hard and calculating al at the same time. I should get a shirt made that says Shakeabadadown.
I’m about to stop running my ass off to other places to visit people. They don’t ever come visit me…I’m just not about to even spend the money.
2 days since his birthday. I think you can get so wrapped up in the celebration that you forget to be sad. Or it’s a deep seeded denial. Then it just hits you like a ton of bricks. Emotions are the greatest human frailty. Questlove played that one weird 80’s reggae sounding song from the Torture album; just the instrumental. Stopped by the gas station to get water this morning. They had Mike cigarette lighters. Not as bad as the Mike switchblade I saw on EBay some years back.
The fire has spread up the 14. It’s on the south side in the direction of the train tracks. OMG! The Wild Animal Paradise is over there! That is the place that has a lion, tiger, liger, panther, or something that belonged to Mike. Fires are so scary. They are beautiful destruction, yet a renewal/rebirth of life within the forest. God’s way of starting things all over again.
The dude with the ponytail is sitting in front of me again on the commuter bus and it’s just as upsetting as it was last week.
I’m glad we’ve moved further away from the mountain range. The fire is in Acton which in mountain very close in mountain ranginess perspective. I hope I don’t have any breathing issues as I don’t have nary an inhaler. Damn air quality!
Joe put his foot in Frankie Beverly’s Can’t Get Over You. It sounds so smooth and clear. I am interested in this tribute album.
Oh, I just remembered something. An anomaly happened when I was in Inglewood at the NPHC Picnic (and by the way, I didn’t get shot): They played Atomic Dog and no Bruhs set it out. After the DJ stopped the music I called them out one 40 yr old Bruh got out there by himself…and I eventually saw 3 younger looking dudes strolling. But Omegas don’t stroll to Atomic Dog! They jump around all crazed like. A damn shame. These West Coast Bruhs are wack. I am just still appalled by it all. The sorors had to set it out. One thing that I have noticed…I am not particularly motivated to fellowship with sorors outside of my chapter because of the cold welcome I received when first coming out here. It’s like…what the point is because they’re going to act all LA.
Where’s Tweet? Her first album was great. One of the few albums I can listen to all of the way through. I remember watching concert footage of her singing in some small venue and she was hoarse. Need a lozenge or something. She made some kind of excuse and looked nervous and lame. He weaves were really cute.
OOOHHH! Tevin Campbell’s Always In My Heart and Karyn White’s Can I Stay With You are essentially the same song instrumentally. LaFace was real lazy the melody department. Just recycled a lot.
OOOH! I also forgot to report I FINALLY RECEIVED MY MIKE T-SHIRTS THAT I ORDERED…on his birthday! They look nice. I am especially excited about the one for the 1st night of the tour. Yay for the $80 T-shirts! Now to pay off the credit card.
DUN DUN DUN DUN DUN
DUN DUN
DUN DUN DUN
Name that beat!
I am just thinking back and I have met so many beautiful people and have had some beautiful moments Michaeling in LA
Oh, and a flash mob is when a group of people get together in a public place and suddenly break out dancing. The TTW guys did a Beat It flash mob Saturday. I couldn’t make either one. There was a bunch of guys who showed up to practice for the Beat It flash mob that looked like replacements for the Backstreet Boys. Seems the organizers pretty much mashed up the Beat It Choreography with that of the 1995 MTV Awards Dangerous performance.
I’m thinking back to the performance of Shakeabadadown in LA for Victory Tour. Sometimes Mike gets lost in what he’s doing. Like his body is just going, but you wonder if his mind is connected. It’s almost like an autopilot. He just be so hard and all over the stage. It’s like he covers every inch. It’s like you can see it in his eyes that he is concentrating so hard that it’s like a blank stare. He has done the song so much; the beat drops and he just goes. It’s like a hungry animal attacking or something. It’s almost energizer bunny-ish. I think there’s an instance during the BAD tour where he deviates from the script. It was a crazy church inspired ad-lib with a call and response. It was really moving. Soft and delicate. Reassuring yet hard and calculating al at the same time. I should get a shirt made that says Shakeabadadown.
I’m about to stop running my ass off to other places to visit people. They don’t ever come visit me…I’m just not about to even spend the money.
recounting the events of August 29 2009
August 30 2009
It’s now 3 something in the AM, August 30 2009 and I am quite happy with my Mike festivities. The Questlove party was great! A Lot of people had on MJ T shirts and fedoras. He played Get It Together and I Betcha! I learned something. Jump by Kriss Kross samples the piano from I Want You Back. I teared up when Niki called me out on zoning out on them. I just let them fall because it was so hot my face was wet anyway. I didn’t even realize it…the zoning out. Then it dawned on me that I was in THAT place in a club full of people. Felt good that it could just be him and I in a hot sweaty slavery cotton field sweat filled room. He also played a live version or two…but the titles escape me right now. I guess I teared up out of sadness. He played some Mike vocal exercises; something about “O.” he even played some of that interview where Mike says he likes Bar-B-Que, All in all it was good to be out fellowshipping in the name of Mike. Questlove even played Whatsupwitu! Gotta go to sleep now. I am nodding while writing this. More to come…
August 30 2009 continued…
Went to Thrill The World practice. Mahdroo is so quirky and cool. I’m getting back into the swing of things. There were some Greasers there chillin' in the park with their cool rides and what not. We became their entertainment. One guy even got up and danced with us…I believe it was his birthday. There were some cool older white ladies there. I recruited one of Felicia’s friends from her birthday party.
…Questlove also played Give It Up, Who Is It, and a smidgeon of Speed Demon. He kicked it off with Whatever you got I want and even played If don’t love you this way. It was so freakin’ hot upstairs. I mean hot as cotton picking in the Mississippi delta hot. My hair was gone! Luckily the speakers outside were playing Questlove’s mix. While I was dancing outside I saw something that looked like a star above. There were no other stars in the sky, just that one star. I watched it for a little and it didn’t move. I’d like to think that it was Mike looking down on us. Some guy had on a T Shirt that said CHAMONE. It was cute. Arissa from Real World Las Vegas was working the table where you pay and crap. She looks the same, but good lord is she ain’t boney as all get out. She needs more than a sandwich. It was some Jamaican looking chick there who looked like she stepped right up off the Rap video set. I mean coochie cutter shorts and some snazzy shoes with a swim suit top and tank top on with shades on at night and a fly short cut. She was cute, but dramatically over/under dressed. Chevonne and I stopped by that building on Pico that is painted black and white with Mike’s name and You Rocked Our World painted across it. Kinda got trapped in the Burger King drive thru, but we were able to get out.
Then later on Taryn and I stopped by during daylight to get a good picture of it.
It’s now 3 something in the AM, August 30 2009 and I am quite happy with my Mike festivities. The Questlove party was great! A Lot of people had on MJ T shirts and fedoras. He played Get It Together and I Betcha! I learned something. Jump by Kriss Kross samples the piano from I Want You Back. I teared up when Niki called me out on zoning out on them. I just let them fall because it was so hot my face was wet anyway. I didn’t even realize it…the zoning out. Then it dawned on me that I was in THAT place in a club full of people. Felt good that it could just be him and I in a hot sweaty slavery cotton field sweat filled room. He also played a live version or two…but the titles escape me right now. I guess I teared up out of sadness. He played some Mike vocal exercises; something about “O.” he even played some of that interview where Mike says he likes Bar-B-Que, All in all it was good to be out fellowshipping in the name of Mike. Questlove even played Whatsupwitu! Gotta go to sleep now. I am nodding while writing this. More to come…
August 30 2009 continued…
Went to Thrill The World practice. Mahdroo is so quirky and cool. I’m getting back into the swing of things. There were some Greasers there chillin' in the park with their cool rides and what not. We became their entertainment. One guy even got up and danced with us…I believe it was his birthday. There were some cool older white ladies there. I recruited one of Felicia’s friends from her birthday party.
…Questlove also played Give It Up, Who Is It, and a smidgeon of Speed Demon. He kicked it off with Whatever you got I want and even played If don’t love you this way. It was so freakin’ hot upstairs. I mean hot as cotton picking in the Mississippi delta hot. My hair was gone! Luckily the speakers outside were playing Questlove’s mix. While I was dancing outside I saw something that looked like a star above. There were no other stars in the sky, just that one star. I watched it for a little and it didn’t move. I’d like to think that it was Mike looking down on us. Some guy had on a T Shirt that said CHAMONE. It was cute. Arissa from Real World Las Vegas was working the table where you pay and crap. She looks the same, but good lord is she ain’t boney as all get out. She needs more than a sandwich. It was some Jamaican looking chick there who looked like she stepped right up off the Rap video set. I mean coochie cutter shorts and some snazzy shoes with a swim suit top and tank top on with shades on at night and a fly short cut. She was cute, but dramatically over/under dressed. Chevonne and I stopped by that building on Pico that is painted black and white with Mike’s name and You Rocked Our World painted across it. Kinda got trapped in the Burger King drive thru, but we were able to get out.
Then later on Taryn and I stopped by during daylight to get a good picture of it.
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Cuban Food, Writing Goals ,and Old ass 1991 hair styles and clothes are coming back in style
I tried Cuban food today. Had some shrimp and rice with a creole sauce. Tasted like gumbo. The waiter was cute. It’s called Versailles. I will go there again. There is also a Rally’s in LA and one in Inglewood. Yea, I went to Inglewood today for the first time and didn’t get shot. It looked cool to me and I saw The Forum from afar. I remember Mike was practicing there to prepare for the tour. One thing I do get tired of is people all of a sudden playing Mike all of the time. It’s irritating. People never truly appreciate you until you’re gone. Maybe that is when we’ll finally find love…when we’re gone. I heard from Amanda at TTW practice that google had Mike dancing across the top of the screen near the google graphic…kinda like how yahoo puts all of the animated things up there for holidays. I enjoyed being in LA for 2 days straight. It was a lovely vacation from the stresses of the desert.
I’m not even sure of how to put my emotions into words right now. New Goal: To write at least 2 pages a day of my book.
Why are styles from the early 1990’s coming back? I mean the shit ABC wore. I mean lose fitting cotton tank tops, high top fades, high top shoes with decent fitting pants, and hats sitting off to the side of your head. All they are missing is the starter tags being left on hats. I hear stone wash jeans are back too. Next up…the jeans that were super narrow at the ankle with bows or zippers at the bottom and you had to really work to get the damn things off at the end of the day. Crazy…and today’s children really don’t know any better. Well the leggings came back. Now when those patent leather blossom shoes with the ribbon bows come back…I’m all on it.
I’m not even sure of how to put my emotions into words right now. New Goal: To write at least 2 pages a day of my book.
Why are styles from the early 1990’s coming back? I mean the shit ABC wore. I mean lose fitting cotton tank tops, high top fades, high top shoes with decent fitting pants, and hats sitting off to the side of your head. All they are missing is the starter tags being left on hats. I hear stone wash jeans are back too. Next up…the jeans that were super narrow at the ankle with bows or zippers at the bottom and you had to really work to get the damn things off at the end of the day. Crazy…and today’s children really don’t know any better. Well the leggings came back. Now when those patent leather blossom shoes with the ribbon bows come back…I’m all on it.
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