Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Quote of the day:4-14-10

4-14-10
Quote of the day:
“I said I sucked his dick the night before last.”
~Vida on Belly

Quote of the day: 4-12

Quote of the day:
“I don’t know karate, but I know karazor.
~James Brown

Mike Music Listeningship and things I would drink Michael Jai White's bath water out of

4-12-10
Heard It Through The Grapevine hits hard as hell. Like, seriously. When it comes on you can just feel the groove. You gotta walk a little differently when it’s on.

I am also making progress in my Mike Music Listeningship. I was bumpin the Solvang CD and I can now add BillieShake, Pride & Joy, and Get It Together to my list of songs I can jam out to and not cry. And so the list is:
1. Shakeabadadown
2. Bad (extended)
3. Pride & Joy
4. Keep It In The Closet (extended)
5. Get It Together
6. BillieShake (its Billie Jean mixed w/ Milkshake

Also, on reviewing the Brandy and Ray J show…Ray J is a bougie ass version of Teeny. Brandy’s eyebrows are arched to high heaven. And what’s up with her hair being gelled down in 2 different directions in the front? I’m like, probably not the only one who is trying to increase lace front awareness.

I like the show, but the more I see Ray J the angrier I get cuz he is so handsome and act like a complete numb nut. He on some 18 year old shit when it comes to behavior. Maybe it’s that baby boy thing cuz my lil bro don’t be thinking things through either. Ooh, and I think I might watch that Basketball Wives show. Came across a rather juicy scene. I think Royce is cute. Ain’t her fault ya’ll old ugly broads got kids and PTA meeting and shit. She did good dancing.

Michael Jai White, I will drink you bath water out of a sippy cup, coffee mug, martini glass, or a silly straw.

Is that ankle skin?

I just saw a Mexican dude who looked like the epitome of the name JULIO.

How I Miss Thee Tupac

4-11-10

The wee hours of the morning: I’ve been watching RockDocs w/ Tupac. I miss him. Until last year that was the date that went down in infamy during my lifetime. He had the most beautiful eyes. Almost like Muffy from Today’s Special, but better somehow. He was so smart and articulate. I wish I could find a man with some of Tupac’s most powerful attributes. No bitch ass Ni99a, but smart and that equals dangerous. I had never seen the footage of him in jail w/o the shaved head. Wonder if he was balding? The whole documentary was tastefully done and the white lady got to say the N word. I totally bought in to that East Coast West Coast Beef. Down South was sssssssoooooooooooo West Side! It’s interesting that he didn’t think he would be done harm by his own people.

I just feel inspired. Moved. I long to find that man that I connect with. I long to find the me that I connect with. I hope to leave something lasting when

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Why Did I Get Married Too: The Review

So, I finally saw Why Did I Get Married Too. Good movie and I am still trying to figure out how to achieve Janet's weave. BUT it ended really wack. You just had to laugh and to quote one of my colleagues, "what?"

Michael Jai White, if you are out there; somewhere… I will drink yo bathwater! Good Gawd ( Sheila E. version) you are sin inducing. Had a comment about your gap, but I’ll leave it at that.

And why was Jill Scott's hair changing in every other scene? She went to bed with straight hair and woke up w/ curly hair. Something about Travers' (oops sorry, he played Travers on ATWT) Troy's eyes make me uncomfy. They are really penetrating. Like he can read my every dirty thought.

Ooh, and Janet's small eye kept me from looking at the screen during the split it down the middle meeting. I hate small eye days.

MY EYE-ITIS IS BACK!

And another thing. Gavin is a weird drunk. I didn’t know if he wanted to drink, break stuff, have sex, wrestle, or become a reverse psychiatrist. It was a weird scene. I think Janet did good being all angry. I just love her hair. She so cute, with them pretty fat cheeks.

Ewww Jermaine, You Nasty!

4-10-10

Yea, a case of me being totally oblivious again. So Let Me Tickle Your Fancy by Jermaine Jackson is like the best B Team song. FYI… The Jacksons are in teams.
A Team- Mike and Janet
B Team- Jermaine, Rebbie then errbody else.

Anyway, so I’m jamming out and I hear the words and IT’S ABOUT SEX!

It hit me at…
“Honey, words cannot express
The sensation that I get
It's a quiverin', tremblin' feeling
Make me wiggle
It makes me shake”

Ewww! Shaking, trembling, and quivering?! He was having a happy ending! Ewwww! But it’s my jam.

Friday, April 9, 2010

What kind of fuckery is this?

4-9-10

Lately I’ve been feeling defeated. Like, maybe there’s no point in fighting.

I’ve already been broken, what reason do I have to go on?

Quote of the day:
“What kind of fuckery is this?"
~Amy Winehouse

This sensory deprivation and my imagination are starting to get the best of me. I just day dream and night dream and when I ain’t dreamin’ there’s nothing in between. I’m so far removed from action that it seems like a fairy tale. Something that other people do…They do it well. Out of performance shape. Totally forgot what it takes. It’s like a mirage and these 2 years are a desert. And I don’t understand why I’m not spoken for. This damp dark cell is lonely. I’m innocent. No real reason for being here. I miss sight, touch, smell. I think back and in my left ventricle this destitution from a blood tear. But here I am. Just here. Not spoken for. Just fear.

Quote of the day: 4-8-10

4-8-10

Quote of the day:

“I ,I just died in your arms tonight. Must have been something you said.”
~That 80’s song

protest at the courthouse : Murray Must Die!


4-5-10

I joined the protest at the courthouse on my lunch today. Felt good to go and support. Saw Randy. Crazy black dude who decided to do The Drill by his damn self tried to talk to me. What’s wrong with me that I attract the unwanteds?

There are 3 things I have a very strong conviction towards:
1. My Family
2. Mike
3. Delta
and in that order.

What a fucked up ass 24 hours

4-4-10

What a fucked up as 24 hours. My sister had a stroke, I’m sick, there was an earth quake and I broke down crying at the hospital at the hospital while watching the Soul Train Special because they showed him doing the robot to Dancing Machine.

Oh yea, and my uncle died Thursday.

Oh yea, and killer talking bout he killed himself. Bitch! If that was the case you should have said that from the get go. I will strip your bowels from your body w/ my bare hands. I need a vacation, a massage, and 2 other adult things.

This is the remix edition...

4-2-10

I can feel him. Walk Right Now is in my head and it feels good. Happy. No sadness. I just had to tell him thank you.

Quote of the day:

“This is the remix edition of a song about pissin.”
~Dave Chappelle

CAPTAIN EO


3-28-10

Today was AWESOME My Super Happy Fun Day was a complete success. Disneyland was pretty fun. We rode Splash Mountain, The Haunted Mansion, Buzz Lightyear, the wack ass invention thingy and CAPTAIN EO twice! It was amazing. My favorite line was “somebody push the red button!” That Hooter character was a total screw up. How he gon’ eat the map??!!! I really enjoyed Mike in that in between color. The 1st time we saw it we sat in the front and it was rather stressing on the eyes. I had a hard time focusing. The 3D experience was awesome. The seats were on a platform that moved and you felt air at appropriate times. The 1st tine around I just smiled. I went to the gift store right after and got me a T Shirt, button, and poster. A little lady was perusing the items and the $169 jacket. She told me she cried. I was able to hold it together. When we 1st got there (to the ride area) sad ass music was playing, but the mood quickly changed to happy.. His yes are so beautiful. I feel so blessed to purely be able to receive his message and his love and give him my love and devotion so freely. It’s so easy to be there with him.

Dreamgirls was GREAT! It was waayy better than the movie. The dude who played Jimmy Early just stole the show. He was James Brown, Prince, and Mike rolled into one. I even saw some Morris Day swag. I mean he just commanded the stage. Their costume changes were quick and impressive.

Thanks cousin, for making my day even more enjoyable.

my right eye started to feel small

3-27-10

He fell on my mind during my voice lesson today. I just couldn’t focus on the lip trill. I just kept envisioning him doing the same exercise and my right eye started to feel small.

The Velvet Rope

3-25-10

I feel that somewhere, somehow...I’ve failed miserably. How else could thing be the way they are?

Remember, they’re just people.

I am just really feeling The Velvet Rope right now. This darkness, this despair…it just puts me in the frame of mind to really hear the words and feel the melodies. I’ve had this CD for like 10 years now and I am just now really hearing it.

“Oh I’m getting freaked from behind . I don’t even mind. Cause he’s looking damn fine. I’ll make him mine in time. Gotta take him home. When I get him alone. I’ll make him scream and moan. He won’t wanna stop.”
~Deep by Janet

Sigh

3-24-10

I tell misled time and time again. Spurred on and loved by the melody. Lost in a land of wonderment. It’s pulsating energy. Even w/ a lack of motivation and faith. I can still sometimes find my happy place. Music

Disappointment...and they act like he killed somebody, geez.

3-19-10

I am just disappointed. I hoped to be further along in life (in a better place) at 28.

Why does it smell like cigarettes and dog food on this bus?

Wow, they are really dogging Tiger Woods out. These chicks are just coming out of the woodworks…months later. I really don’t understand what they are trying to prove by outing him. You’re still a floussy who slept w/ a married man. When did it become cool to be a home wrecker?

right now is often

3-18-10

He falls on my mind ever so often and right now is often. I hear Torture. “She went up the stairs to nowhere…” Then, “hey baby what you’re thinking. No darling no I won’t change my mind. But uh you can’t take my blues away. Tell me what you say baby.”

It’s really interesting how we are supposed to go on. I am stuck. I haven’t been moving at all.

I am angry and I need a vacation. My patience is running out. Never thought my life would be like this.

I HATE YOU SO MUCH RIGHT NOW...AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

3-11-10

I don’t like this one lady who rides the bus w/ me. Her face…just the sight of her makes me snarl. I really don’t like the way she looks. Like, under that pasty ugly new haircut having shell…evil lurks. I just feel it. She’s a total bitch.

The 2000’s: Decade of death and despair.

Stupidest lyric of the month

3-10-10

Stupidest lyric of the month:
She’s an eeny meeny miney moe lover. Can’t make up her mind.”

It's simple

3-9-10

Oh Body guards!

My Final Words

3-8-10

Let these be my final words. For they shall comfort you and stroke your pain. In blinding sunshine. In pouring rain.

Quote of the day: 3-5-10

Quote of the day:
“I fear that if I drown no one will care.”
~Rahsaan Patterson

Hello, World? 3-5-10

3-5-10

What is this world, really? And why am I in it.

I miss you.

Ahh, I am so excited. I am writing again. Maybe it’ll be good because I don’t feel pressured to crank it out. I can just feel my way through.

I feel the need to expend energy.

My soul is in a tropical location today.

Growing up sucks. Why live, if only to die?

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Quote of the day: 3-4-10

3-4-10

Crazy vocally diverse soul stirring duet- Fantasia and Jasmine Sullivan.

Quote of the day:
“…I’m from a world of disappointment and confusion.”
~ Michael Jackson on Carousel

It hurts to write (type) his name.

Although I like it, I feel Friendship Train is a rip off of a Staples Singers song; definitely their sound.

America, California law sucks

Epiphany! If a rapper or football player killed Michael Jackson they’d be in jail until the shit was sorted out. !

3-1-10 Quote of the day

Quote of the day:
“Got me a dog and named her bitch nigga eater.”
~Tupac on Hearts of Men

Go Momma, it's yo birthday!

2-28-10
Happy Birthday Ma! Today was a good day. Aside from cakegate and gamegate it was cool. Fantasia did such a good job as Ceelie in The Color Purple. I saw her personality in the character. Didn’t realize until reading the playbill during intermission that Latoya London played Nettie. I just had a senior moment cause I knew that. The role of Harpo had good chemistry w/ the original Sophia. I’m not sure if it was the original Shug Avery. This show is different from the original Broadway version. I don’t remember the lesbian relationship between Shug and Ceelie being that obvious. Great Show! I can now say that I’ve seen the original Broadway play and the Fantasia version. Shit, Shug was alluring. I see why errbody wanted her. And that white suit she had on at the end…flawless!

We went on an adventure around LA t show Ma Hollywood and we ended up taking Sunset all the way through She-sheville. So she got the chance to be in Beverly Hills and Be Air. Then a happening happened. I saw a street sign that said Holmby Ranch Rd. I think I was near that Holmby Hills area I told myself I’d never go near wherever that area was. Just my luck, I happened upon it and it solidified when I then drove past UCLA. God is cruel.

John Williams did the score to the winter Olympics. He gets around. Go Canada! In the closing ceremony they used the torch lighting glitch in the show. A mime got the thing up and running and the Katherine chick that couldn’t light her stick got to light it. I think it’s really cool that Canada recognizes its indigenous people. The US didn’t recognize nary of Native American during any Olympics in my lifetime. The Olympic game montages NBC puts together are awesome, stirring, moving. And along w/ that John Williams’ Music…it’s just so nice.

Rip Boner and Bang Bang Gotcha

2-26-10

Just noticed it, but it’s this dude who rides my bus that favors Ashy Larry.

Mr. Koenig’s statement about not being alone touched me. Depression sucks and I do feel alone. Not suicidal, but alone. RIP Boner! Man, this sucks.

Where is Keith Washington?

Quote of the day: Oh, I met my baby at the bang bang gotcha shoot em up movies, yea.”
~ The Deele

Regina Bell reminds me of a Jr. Patti LaBelle w/ her delivery.

Hands down, the grossest thing I have ever seen in all of my life. It just weirded me out. Flipping through the channels and stopped on that Kardashian show because I saw a little newborn baby. They go on to show footage of the chick having the baby and she pulled that mug out of herself. I mean it was most of the way out, but the doctor allowed her to pull its feet or something out. She had a super epidural. That was the most gangsta shit I have ever seen in my life.

I am afraid of my heart and Jack/Bobby's eyes

2-24-10

I am afraid of my heart.

All I really want in life is music and love…in that order.


Jack from Lost has eyes like Bobby. He has the most beautiful eyes. I’ll always remember that. Nice lips too. I pray for him and the eventual deliverance of his heart and mind from the shackles of poverty and generations of ignorance.
So, I was wondering this for a couple of years now. I happen upon a Jet magazine sitting on the microwave and as I flip through it there was a story about…THE BOYS…WHERE ARE THEY NOW! They’re alive and doing stuff. The oldest one was baby Kunta Kinte in Roots and Bilal grew up to be the finest man of them all.

In the kinda words of Katt Williams…’If you get killed by a Killer Whale. If you get killed by a Killer Whale at SeaWorld.’ Ha! I know it’s not PC, but it’s funny.

TRAGIC and thats why we pray!

2-23-10

Captain EO Opens today! Yay! I wish they’d release the end date. I am aiming for the weekend of March 27th. Why is it so cold this morning? It is brisk. The coldness is nipping at me. Where’d they get the name Nipsey from?

Day 2… and let’s try to stave off hunger. Sometimes I just look out at the sky and say…I LOVE YOU.

I wonder if my mom has picked up on the fact that every time one of his songs comes on the radio, I change the station. I usually don’t even let the 2nd beat drop before I change it. It hurts so badly,

DAMN Whitney! Saving All My Love For You came on this morning and she used to sound so good. It’s unbelievably tragic. TRAGIC, as Mr. Omar would say.

Do you ever have to be really still in order to achieve optimum gas passing efficiency?


Aww shit, 93.5 is playing Pray by MC Hammer! Damn, now I wanna go see him in concert. I see love in my very recent past or very near future.