Sunday, January 31, 2010

The Grammys

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I saw some show on the discovery channel about pacific salmon and how they die after spawning. That sucks, but seeing them decay into the ground via sped up footage made me think that Mike is somewhere decaying. I really question the point of fighting on.

The Grammys:

Why did Beyonce sing You Ought To Know by Alanis Morissette? She sounded decent though.

awww, this is some bullshit. Either my 3D glasses didn't work or my eyes don't. Oh well. So the Mickey Mouse eyebrow having member of 3T looks pretty decent. The oldest one was nice looking. I like him better with the short cut at the memorial. Boy, Tito spit out the youngest one. God Bless the Children. Paris was cute with her little smart girl glasses on. Prince’s voice done changed. OOH, children grow up too quick for me.

Go BonJovi!
The light skinned dude from Black Eyed Peas cut his hair. I wonder if they are mad about being relegated to background rappers. Their ensembles and robot dancers were cool though. My mom thinks Fergie is cute….wow.

OMG, Mos Def is so cute!

Oooh, that kid was Solange’s. He cute.

This Mary and Andrea Bosceli duet should be interesting. Damn Andrea is so open. So full, so beautiful. His voice is truly a gift. It’s effortless. That performance was awesome!

I bought the THIS IS IT DVD, but probably won’t watch it. I don’t know if I can bring myself to do so.

Maxwell need to clear his throat or something.
What is WE gon do with Quentin Tarantino?

Ain’t Lil Wayne supposed to be in Jail? Drake is the new Craig David, but with a little street cred because of his label. They are all very short.

OOH, OOH, OOOH. I so get it. I so get it now. 3T lost their mom at an early age. I totally get the connection and how important they can be to the children. That's really sweet.

Ok, so me being oblivious of the obvious; The news showed a clip of Prince giving the acceptance speech and when I read the chyron I was confused like...what about Michael Jackson and Prince and why is that "I" there. I totally forgot the baby's name. I just call them The Children.

You-A Poem

I forget that like. That like you so much I think I love you. Am I in love with you? I don’t know. But I just wanna be with you. Look at you. Hug you. Kiss you. Lie on your chest and talk to you. Can’t get enough of you. Every waking and sometimes sleeping moment with you. Yea, that felt good. Real good. The memories of my feeling of you.

Ugly ass name, sweat, and Lord, please let Dhani Jones date black women.

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Lord, please let Dhani Jones date black women. I can’t take another heart break.

Ugliest name on earth: D’Brickashaw

Death is everywhere today.

I have a problem. I can’t help dancing in the mirror just about every time I go to the bathroom.

I find absolute beauty in sweat on black people. As long as they don’t stink. The skin just glistens.

THIS IS IT DVD RELEASE PARTY 1/25/10-1/26/10


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It was pretty nice last night…standing in line for the THIS IS IT DVD. There were a lot of people there all extra and trying to be seen. I mean mohawks with waved tails. Guess they were just trying to be discovered. A lot of Asians B-Boying and what not. This old white dude did a hip-hop routine and hot the James Brown split. This little black dude with blue contacts and streaks of eyeliner down his face looking like a colored Brandon Lee on The Crow did a decent impersonation. It was a girl thing that had hair like Fredrick Douglas. It was a dry curl or a gummy afro. The dancers were HOT! I saw the cute Australian, the cute Black dude and the little something to belie e in and THIS IS IT crying dancer. Ooh, and the little Black girl dancer who said Mike smelled good. They did Shakeabadadown and The Drill. The fans ended up not dancing with them during it…I guess a mix up.

Sony is trying to pull a fast one. The Blu Ray has a bonus 3rd disc and a replica of the VIP/Backstage pass from the tour. The DVD just has the movie and that extra 1 hour of footage. I’m sleepy as hell, but am happy I went.

Oooh, ad I thought we would screen the whole movie. Why they cut it off right before “Light out, let it burn”???? CONSPIRACY!

There were tap dancers and the lead lady really seemed to be happy. She just beamed. A couple, well a dude and a girl, did swing dancing. It was awesome. I’d like some of those moves in my reception dance. I know Mike beamed to see all of those people there dancing. It’s a unification through dance. It was so beautiful. I feel so blessed.

OMG, I just burped up all kinds of acid. It really burned my esophagus. I exclaimed aloud it felt so uncomfy and burny.

A new Tyrese song! OOOH!

Sentimental Thoughts

You ever wonder what became of a person you so dearly cherished years and years ago? Like, do they recognize how special it was? How fun. Or is it just a memory. Are you just some person…that if given the opportunity they‘d use. I just wonder are you still in there. I hope you didn’t leave. I’d like to see you again. You’re dear to me, even though I know you don’t know it.

“I hope you know who you are.”
~Dear to Me by Amel Larrieux

1-24-10 Stuff

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Wow, Almagra is a small man, but Good Lawd he plays a big game. Tsonga beat him, but that was not an easy match at all. He got heart. It’s like Verdasco and Nadal a few years back.
I am officially old. Usher has a True Hollywood Story. Why? I just be thinking those are fore more established or notorious public figures.

GUESS WHAT?! My favorite US Marshall who always jokes with me every morning shared some awesome information this morning. I am debuting my new Mike buttons on my cool chick jacket in anticipation of the release tonight. He sees my buttons and says who is the King of Pop? Then he tells me he has been to Hayvenhurst. One of the nieces got married and they had a informal gathering and he and his wife were invited. He saw Janet. AWESOME! He said it very proudly. He said, “I’ve been to his mother’s house.” He said he and his wife took pictures too.

I hope today is a good day. Sometimes thing can turn on the drop of a dime for me emotionally.

You ever wish you could be someone other than you? I do.

Sam Cooke kinda had a fat head. I am still perplexed by the events surrounding his death. Just confused. There seems to be unanswered questions. And now I know where Lou Rawls came from.

Why did Jodeci and H-Town team up to make a song called...Knockin Your Heels Off?

Imagination and Dirty Jokes

Have you ever thought or imagined something so awesome, so delightful that you smiled a full smile, well a grin, and your eyes welled up with happy tears? I have.

Funny dirty joke of the week:
How do you hold your liquor? By his ears.
Thanks co-worker

Quote of the day:1-22-10

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Quote of the day: “I be where I be. And I’m at where I’m at.”
~Smokey on Friday

Chris...

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I wonder if today is gonna be a good day?

Gotta add another old dude I would have holla’d at if I were born and of age. Sananda Maitreya on the Vibrator Tour in 1995 and Prince if I was high on shrooms or roofies in 1983.

It’s 3:19pm and I really wanna hug Chris Tucker right now.

A yo B, what’s up A? WAAACCKKKK

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Reflecting…Ralph Tresvant looks hard at the dace as a middle aged man. His face looks like a wing of Jim Beam outside of a steel factory in Chicago in 1948.

Oh, shit they done did a Motown chop up the group. The bill for a show says Dru Hill with Sisqo.

Oh the trauma! Jammin to the extended version of Keep It In The Closet and the song goes “if it’s aching you got to rub it.” Ooohhhhhh! I’m telling you I just be singing and happy and totally oblivious to the lyrics.

“A yo B, what’s up A?” Yea, that was a stupid thing to say. But I love this song. Go Alicia and Beyonce.

Note: Word usage indicates how old a person is

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Old dues I would have holla’d at if I were born and of age

Old dues I would have holla’d at if I were born and of age:
(in no particular order after Billie Dee)
1. Billie Dee Williams ( I would have let him hit me like 2 times)
2. James Brown (country, chocolate, and a big pretty smile)
3. Sam Cooke (up north hood church swagger)
4. Lead singer from the BarKays on Wattstax. That perm worked for him)
5. Jackie Jackson(Plackaowwww, goes them abs with the sweat all over his
bawdy)
6. Al Green (had guns and a pretty smile, suave)
7. Bobby Brown (hey, he had that bad boy thing, dark skinned, and a nice body)
8. That hood on Good Times that got JJ arrested and his mom disowned him.
9. Cochise on Cooley High
10. Robert Townsend
11. Dresser on the 5 Heartbeats
12. Mike 1979-1981 (I just love the cute of his jib in some jeans, and the eyes
and smile of course)

My heart and my mind are out in the deep end of the despair pool

Will forcing myself to listen to his music hurt more than help? I can’t even get happy off nothing, but Shakeabadadown and the extended version of BAD. I find that sometimes I can blindly look at him or hear him. Like when I was at Wal-Mart last night. I was over at the display, but I didn’t internalize it. I find that more often than not I can’t even speak of him without tearing up.

Development: I can listen to the extended version of Keep It In The Closet and get happy. C’est na pas.

I’m just feeling like I don’t know how to love him right because I be running from him to avoid the pain.

Quote of the day: 1-19-2010

Quote of the day:
“You and I we’ll be together til the 6 is 9.”
~Rick James
Back to QC Jail and apparently this doesn’t keep me focused because today I wrote more than I have in like 2 months away from QC Jail.

Have you ever been able to feel a city’s energy? I can feel LA’s energy ever so often, but it’s always in the middle of the night and in the Hollywood vicinity.

Yay Pandora! Please get me through this day.

Why the US always gotta go save people? And be the largest group with the largest commitment. What will happen if we are not able?

Where is Jill Scott? Please come back. Please.

I love trumpets with mutes.

It would be awesome to go to a 1950’s Juke Joint Party. It would be all worker house from Dirty Dancing with knife fights, moonshine in mason jars, and craps behind the building. Juke Joints don’t have bathrooms do they?

The Right Time by Ray Charles always reminds me of that episode of the Cosby Show. That makes me happy.

OMG, someone should do a cirque…never mind. This idea may be too good and lucrative to share.

This past weekend at work there was the cutest maybe French lady. I mean she was so pretty and was comfy touching strangers; that’s me.

Where in the hell is Glenn Lewis?

Where is Vivian Green?

Remember when Beyonce was in that Case video and everybody was like oooh they talking! Glad they weren’t because he be eating out triflent chicks on camera and shit. That speaks so much about his character. I really don’t need to be aware of no one’s sexual exploits.

Love You Like That by All-4-One is the shit!
Lord Jesus music is the best thing man ever made. All I ask is that I not go deaf. I need to music to live. I don’t understand how people can be NOT all that into music. Blasphemy!

Who is Lillo Thomas and why does he have a Best Of CD?

Why in the hell would I want big ass chunks of fruit in my oatmeal? EWWW!
I am just really not feeling this new Robin Thicke CD. It’s generic and it doesn’t feel genuine. Like, maybe this effort lacks Robin. There’s no passion. Just generic sex music. You can never say that any Prince sex song lacked passion. You believe in the lyrics and his ability to do just what he is saying.

Pandora just got wack. DAMN YOU ADVERTISEMENTS! Now they have video ads.

Top 3 Girl Groups ever (based on vocals):
1. En Vogue
2. Three Degrees
3. Xscape

Where is Meelah from 702? She was the group.

I feel 15 all over again. Listening to My Life by Mary. Hoped to never feel this ag
The Jig Is Up! No more Pandora. Word on the streets is that the man is watching.

Why did this idiot ass radio announcer say that there was a tornado on the ground out somewhere and then proceeds to say DUCK. WTF? If you have nothing accurate to say just shut up. Watch some Cali fool actually ducks.

The Blues Brothers version of Give Me Some Loving is way better than the original.

Im’a make a Juke Joint Early Sunday Morning CD.

I didn’t even know my store manager knew I loved Mike. She came up to me and was like…there’s a Michael Jackson son on the new playlist.

Why is Frankie Valli still alive?

Saw TO at the Australian Open and I turned my lip up at him and snarled like Lucy. He is so beautiful and he doesn’t date black chicks. It hurts. It hurts so bad (tear).

Monday, January 18, 2010

I agree with Bobby Brown

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Went to Walmart, Heard Billie Jean playing aloud. Turns out they have a THIS IS IT display. I bought some buttons.

I’ve come to realize that no matter what, I am broken. I go out and smile, and my personality peaks out, but when I am alone and people’s eyes are off me I slump in despair. A shell of my former self.

I agree with Bobby Brown. I am lonely from within.

I don't feel all that blessed

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Are we really blessed to be alive?

I think I’m about to be in. I just never feel greek events out here. They’re just lacking that something. Ooh, my momma was watching something on E and The Jacksons show came on. Had to change that. Still trying to get into heaven. I am curious about it though.

The dude who sings the hook on Keep Your Head Up by Tupac sounds like Dave Hollister.

I figured I’d share the stigma.

Forgot to report I got traumatized last night. Was flipping through the channels and saw an elephant all painted up and pretty so I stopped. Then here comes a way bigger elephant. It stood up on 2 legs and proceeded to have sex with the pretty painted elephant. The dude elephant even groaned during the act. Then it pulled out and the thing fell to the ground and a gush of secretions came out of the pretty painted elephant. I promise you I sat there with my jaw dropped for at least 30-40 seconds. I still can’t believe I saw that. So now that I am traumatized I figured I’d share the stigma.

Grey Poupon, Dorian Gray ain't all that, Mothers Cookies, and Humpty Noses

OMG, grey poupon is a killer. It burned the hell out of my nose. Not, its running.

“Mothers Cookies. Mothers Mothafuckin Cookies.”
~Eddie Griffin on Double Take

Speaking of. They make the bomb lemon cookies. It’s like crack.

There’s not great concerts coming. Outside of Mariah and Boyz II Men. Well Teena Marie is coming, but the Whispers are gonna be there and I can’t have no part in that.

This usually never happens, but I saw a cute black dude today. I can probably count on one hand how many men I have seen and thought “damn he’s cute.” I promise you, like 3 since 2005.
Dorian Gray ain’t even all that cute. I don’t understand all of the fuss Oscar.

Funny mishearing story. Not until this year did I understand the main part of Wreckless Love by Alicia Keys. I had been singing “oh baby let’s go have that breakfast love.”

I forgot this too. An Asian dude with flava cane to my window yesterday. He had ling hair and was on the taller side of Asianatics. 2 issues, he ha d a jacked up extra canine tooth and a red spot on his eye. But you take them two things away and he love me long time.

I’m super late. Just realized the humor of the line “in the 69 my humpty nose’ll tickle your rear.”

Quote of the day: 1-15-10

Quote of the day: 1-15-10

“What’s it gonna be baby? Do you want him or do you want me. Cause I want you. Said I want you. Tell me baby do you want me I gotta know. I gotta know do you want me. Baby baby baby listen to me. I may not know where I’m going baby. Whoo! Looka here. I say I may not know what I need. One thing. One thing’s for certain baby. I know what I want yea. And if it please you baby. Please you baby. I’m begging you down on my knees. I want you.”
~The Beautiful Ones by Prince

Thursday, January 14, 2010

I Want-A Poem

I want a crazy love. A so good it feels wrong love. A nervous heart pounding love filled with adrenaline rush after adrenaline rush. Something so magical. So real. So easy. Yet so difficult. A Prince and Apollonia on Purple Rain type of love. A Darius and Nina type of love. A Josh and Reva kind of love. An all consuming soft down comforter full of love. An "I don't care where we go, I don't care what we do. I don't care pretty baby, Just take me with you" kind of love. A when we are together we create our own universe type of love