I Hate My Life

just thought I'd let you know that.

I have a problem

I need to convert some of my flv file mike videos into a mp4 format, but am not ready to look at my videos. I just get nervous. I start to tear up and I end up getting a nervous tick because I am fighting so hard not to cry.

The middle child: That's Me

The middle child: has less of a clear-cut role in the family; instead, they often make a place for themselves outside the family, creating a network of close friends, venturing away from the family physically, and breaking the mold intellectually as well.

Quote of my life: 1981-

"What one wishes is to be touched by truth and to be able to interpret that truth so that one may use what one is feeling and experiencing, be it despair or joy, in a way that will add meaning to one's life and will hopefully touch others as well."
~Michael Jackson

Something horrible has happened 5-11-10

Something horrible has happened. A man sat with me on the bus this morning. I hate him. I hate men who come and sit all gap legged. Fuck you and your balls! He got his fat ass arm touching mine. I can’t even write this down without touching his arm. Pasty faced bastard, I am filled with such an unwarranted hatred sometimes. I am just not happy in the morning. Now I might not be able to take my morning nap because this dude has brought my bus comfort level down to orange. It has colors like the terror alert system.

Today was a pretty decent day. Kicked it with the colleagues, bought some clothes, watched lost. Good times. Good times.

Why Mickey Rooney is pretty fly for an old white guy

Mickey Rooney. I totally agree. You are pretty fly for an old white guy. Music does suck today and the artists (if you can call them that) lack in substance.

You ever have something to say, but when it comes time to chronicle it you draw a blank. Maybe it was about Saturday. They no have Mike impersonators on Hollywood Blvd and the Incredible Hulk is just a fat white dude with his body painted green with torn up clothes on. Why was Batman just standing there kind of staring off into space with his Bat Mask off?!! Batman never takes his disguise off in public. He doesn’t take the duty of batman seriously.

Now all the major players in the movie version of The Wiz have passed, except Diana Ross. Guess she’s the Otis Williams of that movie.

Why...

did I see Tyrese on George Lopez and he looks real swole at the face. Like he been eating hams. It was an old episode because they were talking about Teddy Pendergrass. And what season was it. This dude had on a quadruple breasted butterfly collared coat. He ain't cute unless he's emaciated.

I don't feel important. I don't ask for much from people, but I'd appreciate your time and your opinion ever so often.

Cargate

Cargate is stressing me out. She does not want to accelerate from a stopped position. I couldn’t take my normal mooring bus nap. I finally fell asleep when we go on the 5 and when I woke up that All Cry At The Sam Time song was in my head. I wonder if I dreamed about him.

National Don’t Match Day and being Disappointed

4-27-10

Today was National Don’t Match Day.

I think maybe I make things out to be more than they are. I live in the past. Or maybe my expectations of people are too high. I expect them to be as thoughtful as I am. Maybe they can’t make time in their lives. I view it as some special thing. Something that made me a better person. Maybe we aren’t as close as I thought. Something biblical says do unto others as you’d have them do unto you, but I don’t get reciprocity. I’m tired of making the effort and no one reciprocates. Maybe its time to do what they’ve done and move on with my life. Thoroughly disappointed. Wow.

California Adventure

4-26-10

Yesterday was aight. California Adventure kinda sucks. It’s just not as magical. The atmosphere and feeling make up 90% of the experience. Tower of Terror and Soarin Over California was cool. We did the Monsters Inc. ride and it was awesome to be in the room with all of the doors. That cartoon was s o good. We did the animation workshop, but we had to draw Jack from the Nightmare Before Christmas. Mine was horrible. The little 8yr old girl in front of me did better.

I saw Sulley from Monsters Inc., but he stopped taking pics as soon as I got in line. I didn’t really want to take a picture with anybody else so no character pictures for me.

My imaginary rapper name is Lil Prada Oopsie Doo

For ya’ll that don’t know. My imaginary rapper name is Lil Prada Oopsie Doo. Check out my rhymes.

Kidding Like Jason
Tigga Like the basement
Dunkin like Jordan
Jheri like curls
Lo like Flo-rida
Potato like Or Ida
Black like a skillet
Murda like OJ Simpson
Tom like Broccoli
Bald like Barkley
Sweet like potato
Hatas be real fake-oh

Hot Lusty Story Coming Up

I think I may take a stab at writing a lusty very short story called The Lusty Colleague Conundrum.

This Past Weekend

4-19-2010

On Friday 16th-I went to a restaurant and every other song was Mike. Dirty Diana, Leave Me Alone, Smooth Criminal.

On Saturday 17th-I was happy. Truly happy. I think I tend to be happy when I have a full day of activities. At my voice lesson. My instructor suggested I do a Mike ballad. I told her I wasn’t ready for that yet. I gave an impromptu TTW lesson as Sistas n Salsa. Death At A Funeral was funny. “Norman, why you grinning like Louie Armstrong?”
~Chris Rock’

Went to a party at the LA Athletic Club. Nice Atmosphere Lots of old ass men. One dude looked like a Mississippi Steamboat Barbershop Quartet singing Captain. With that straw hat on! Another dude had a grey or platinum blonde facial hair. Once chick was dancing like she was on Soul Train or a former MC Hammer dancer. Another chick had on a dress the length of booty shorts. BUT there was an opening in the front from the breasts to the stomach and she had a distended starving African belly. Coup De Gras- the bald dude with the fanny pack who couldn’t dance, but was dancing his ass off. We had a dance battle. It was a tie. I even got to drop it like its hot cause they played Back That Ass up. I loved the music. But my feet are stressed. Ooh, and I bought these cute Purple Prince boots for $9.99 at Charlotte Russe. Yay for extremely happy day #2 of 2010.

It's Smothering Me

4-16-2010

Man, Push Me Away is in my head. I feel a smothering angst. I want to act it out.

OMG

4-15-2010

There goes my baby makes me perform it. I can’t just sing. I have to perform the song. The passion on this one is…it feels like a warm liquid running down your body from head to toe. More like an oil. This song reminds of that moment on the BAD Tour on I’ll Be There/She’s Out Of My Life when Mike makes that face and holds on to his belt like it hurts, but maybe it feels good.

That new urban mystic sound sounds like Joe.